Serious I think i might actually end it this week

[NatsumeSouseki]

I don't know if i can keep going on like this

I'm slowly just losing control, I'm becoming more and more incapable of controlling my own thoughts

I can't even write coherently anymore, its all just turning off and shutting down

I was supposed to study to become a doctor but I don't even know if i can do that anymore

Im so tired, just so so tired

I want to sleep, i wish i could just sleep and keep sleeping

I've stuck in the ring and fought for so long and its all just worth fuck all

even if i geomaxx and ascend, I'll never have love because true love isnt even real, true love isnt real even for chad because they only love his bone structure

I truly WANTED to love women, I REALLY REALLY wanted to, but they are just incapable of loving me and for that I cant love them either

I have nothing but the desire to make money and be successful and own my own hospital one day

I wanted to stand outside my hospital in my little white coat and feel proud about something for once

I don't think I'm going to make it, I think its time to finish it and throw in the towel

 

[NatsumeSouseki]

Same issue here bro.

im so tired, im so so tired

i dont even know anymore, what the hell is the point, why are we even trying

why did i ever choose to get up, why did i ever think i was allowed to have dreams

 

[Dusk]

If I know anything about you it's that you're high IQ! You learned some of the hardest languages in the world for English natives by yourself and you managed to get to the point you're at right now due to your perseverance, dedication, and maybe a little bit of talent too.

You should be proud of your achievements, many of us are rotting and it doesn't make us that happy. If you have the drive to chase the whispers of that dream it's probably better than LDARing. Even if it doesn't go to plan we'll have UBI and AI fever dreams before long anyway so it's worth sticking around a bit longer.

 

[Grim_Reaper]

Why would you want to become a doctor as an incel. Slaving away a decade of your life studying a subject to help the people that want you dead.

 

[NatsumeSouseki]

Why would you want to become a doctor as an incel. Slaving away a decade of your life studying a subject to help the people that want you dead.

thats the thing, the plan wasn't to help them

it is to cause as much havoc for nurse foids as possible while giving free treatment to truecels

I wanted to become either a dermatologist to fix their skin or an OMFS surgeon to help with their face, perhaps orthopedics to give free LL

 

[NatsumeSouseki]

If I know anything about you it's that you're high IQ! You learned some of the hardest languages in the world for English natives by yourself and you managed to get to the point you're at right now due to your perseverance, dedication, and maybe a little bit of talent too.

You should be proud of your achievements, many of us are rotting and it doesn't make us that happy. If you have the drive to chase the whispers of that dream it's probably better than LDARing. Even if it doesn't go to plan we'll have UBI and AI fever dreams before long anyway so it's worth sticking around a bit longer.

i know, if i try hard I can do it but I don't even know how long I can keep trying hard

 

[FrothySolutions]

Do you/did you have a plan for becoming a doctor?

 

[NatsumeSouseki]

Do you/did you have a plan for becoming a doctor?

I do, i got into medical school in japan and I'm sitting on a deferred acceptance but its quite expensive, the plan was to go to a medical school in italy for much cheaper, do residency training in germany and when I'm fully licensed, to move to switzerland after receiving german citizenship for the higher salary or climb the medical hierarchy in germany and become a Chefarzt, or chief of a hospital

 

[copemaxx9002]

I don't know if i can keep going on like this

I'm slowly just losing control, I'm becoming more and more incapable of controlling my own thoughts

I can't even write coherently anymore, its all just turning off and shutting down

I was supposed to study to become a doctor but I don't even know if i can do that anymore

Im so tired, just so so tired

I want to sleep, i wish i could just sleep and keep sleeping

I've stuck in the ring and fought for so long and its all just worth fuck all

even if i geomaxx and ascend, I'll never have love because true love isnt even real, true love isnt real even for chad because they only love his bone structure

I truly WANTED to love women, I REALLY REALLY wanted to, but they are just incapable of loving me and for that I cant love them either

I have nothing but the desire to make money and be successful and own my own hospital one day

I wanted to stand outside my hospital in my little white coat and feel proud about something for once

I don't think I'm going to make it, I think its time to finish it and throw in the towel

see u next week.

 

[Slut_Annihilator298]

As hard as it is, I recommend you to focus on something else. Find something to occupy yourself with. Read books, learn a new language, or learn history. That's what I've been doing recently, and I feel at peace whenever I do so. All those thoughts of murderous rage and sadness leave my heart and mind whenever I read a book on history or work on my Latin and Egyptian (Middle Egyptian, to be exact). No matter what, there will always be something in this world to occupy yourself with. Find it

 

[turbosperg]

I truly WANTED to love women, I REALLY REALLY wanted to, but they are just incapable of loving me and for that I cant love them either

Cool. That's what getting blackpilled feels like.

I have nothing but the desire to make money and be successful and own my own hospital one day

Do it. Then fuck all the nurses.

 

[NatsumeSouseki]

As hard as it is, I recommend you to focus on something else. Find something to occupy yourself with. Read books, learn a new language, or learn history. That's what I've been doing recently, and I feel at peace whenever I do so. All those thoughts of murderous rage and sadness leave my heart and mind whenever I read a book on history or work on my Latin and Egyptian (Middle Egyptian, to be exact). No matter what, there will always be something in this world to occupy yourself with. Find it

ill try

 

[faded]

I don't know if i can keep going on like this

I'm slowly just losing control, I'm becoming more and more incapable of controlling my own thoughts

I can't even write coherently anymore, its all just turning off and shutting down

I was supposed to study to become a doctor but I don't even know if i can do that anymore

Im so tired, just so so tired

I want to sleep, i wish i could just sleep and keep sleeping

I've stuck in the ring and fought for so long and its all just worth fuck all

even if i geomaxx and ascend, I'll never have love because true love isnt even real, true love isnt real even for chad because they only love his bone structure

I truly WANTED to love women, I REALLY REALLY wanted to, but they are just incapable of loving me and for that I cant love them either

I have nothing but the desire to make money and be successful and own my own hospital one day

I wanted to stand outside my hospital in my little white coat and feel proud about something for once

I don't think I'm going to make it, I think its time to finish it and throw in the towel

Make holes suffER first (in gta!)

 

[failednormie_]

Your not ropping I will call FBI

 

[NatsumeSouseki]

Make holes suffER first (in gta!)

will try

 

[NatsumeSouseki]

Your not ropping I will call FBI

I won't, i drank some milk and went outside and felt a little better

 

[Joseph Goebbels]

I do, i got into medical school in japan and I'm sitting on a deferred acceptance but its quite expensive, the plan was to go to a medical school in italy for much cheaper, do residency training in germany and when I'm fully licensed, to move to switzerland after receiving german citizenship for the higher salary or climb the medical hierarchy in germany and become a Chefarzt, or chief of a hospital

That's a really smart plan

 

[faded]

will try

I love sex harass girls

 

[Adolf Kitler]

real

 

[failednormie_]

I love sex harass girls

Mogger

 

[faded]

Mogger

I get in trouble for it constantly the foids complain and report me

 

[Coldone666]

Be a plastic surgeon so you can touch there boobs.

 

[Coldone666]

I get in trouble for it constantly the foids complain and report me

Lol, what did you do?

 

[FrothySolutions]

I do, i got into medical school in japan and I'm sitting on a deferred acceptance but its quite expensive, the plan was to go to a medical school in italy for much cheaper, do residency training in germany and when I'm fully licensed, to move to switzerland after receiving german citizenship for the higher salary or climb the medical hierarchy in germany and become a Chefarzt, or chief of a hospital

You got into medical school??? You've gone too far to quit now. Having gotten into medical school, you must be aware of how hard that is.

 

[failednormie_]

You got into medical school??? You've gone too far to quit now. Having gotten into medical school, you must be aware of how hard that is.

Yeah he moggs. High iq

 

[NatsumeSouseki]

You got into medical school??? You've gone too far to quit now. Having gotten into medical school, you must be aware of how hard that is.

yeah ill keep going i guess, i must destroy foids

 

[NatsumeSouseki]

Yeah he moggs. High iq

only thing being high iq got me was it made foids really mad when i beat them in debate team

at my uni we had the debate of prolife vs prochoice and i absolutely murdered this group of foids alone and won by unanimous decision, they malded so hard, that was the only real time i felt happy for high iq

other than that its kinda the only thing holding my dream of hurting foids together. if i didnt have it, i'd be just as happy (sad) as i am now but with less work to do

 

[faded]

Lol, what did you do?

Lots of things

 

[rope infinity ♾️]

Don't do suicide brocel, stay with us.

 

[failednormie_]

only thing being high iq got me was it made foids really mad when i beat them in debate team

at my uni we had the debate of prolife vs prochoice and i absolutely murdered this group of foids alone and won by unanimous decision, they malded so hard, that was the only real time i felt happy for high iq

other than that its kinda the only thing holding my dream of hurting foids together. if i didnt have it, i'd be just as happy (sad) as i am now but with less work to do

I couldn’t finish highschool. I’d probably die at university or college ngl my brain would probably give out like a boxer engine

 

[NatsumeSouseki]

Don't do suicide brocel, stay with us.

ill keep it pushing, i wont finish it, not until im done!

 

[SupremeGentleCel]

Why would you want to become a doctor as an incel. Slaving away a decade of your life studying a subject to help the people that want you dead.

 

[LostSoulUK]

same, everyday I've suffered with my mental health, it's a hell like no other. Listen man, I don't know you and you don't me, but I don't want you to die that much is true. All I can say is, try to exhaust all possible options of changing you're life in some meaningful way. It's rich coming from me as I'm a lazy bastard but I'm coming from a unique perspective as a teaching assistant. My life is fucked as well, I've got no life other than work so this advice also applies to myself and my own mental health as I'm very guilty of drowning in my sorrows which leads nowhere but despair.

 

[XDFLAMEBOY]

Why would you want to become a doctor as an incel. Slaving away a decade of your life studying a subject to help the people that want you dead.

I would rather rescue animals then people I would agree with you

 

[XDFLAMEBOY]

I don't know if i can keep going on like this

I'm slowly just losing control, I'm becoming more and more incapable of controlling my own thoughts

I can't even write coherently anymore, its all just turning off and shutting down

I was supposed to study to become a doctor but I don't even know if i can do that anymore

Im so tired, just so so tired

I want to sleep, i wish i could just sleep and keep sleeping

I've stuck in the ring and fought for so long and its all just worth fuck all

even if i geomaxx and ascend, I'll never have love because true love isnt even real, true love isnt real even for chad because they only love his bone structure

I truly WANTED to love women, I REALLY REALLY wanted to, but they are just incapable of loving me and for that I cant love them either

I have nothing but the desire to make money and be successful and own my own hospital one day

I wanted to stand outside my hospital in my little white coat and feel proud about something for once

I don't think I'm going to make it, I think its time to finish it and throw in the towel

What about getting a remote job and just getting an introverted life style?

 

[brazi]

please don't die brocel. try escortmaxxing at least once to see if it can work as a cope.

 

[NatsumeSouseki]

What about getting a remote job and just getting an introverted life style?

I’ll do what I can

I don’t know but by some stroke of luck someone decided to talk to me on discord and I felt better

 

[92 drowsiness?]

see u next week.

 

[The Abyss]

I don't know if i can keep going on like this

I'm slowly just losing control, I'm becoming more and more incapable of controlling my own thoughts

I can't even write coherently anymore, its all just turning off and shutting down

I was supposed to study to become a doctor but I don't even know if i can do that anymore

Im so tired, just so so tired

I want to sleep, i wish i could just sleep and keep sleeping

I've stuck in the ring and fought for so long and its all just worth fuck all

even if i geomaxx and ascend, I'll never have love because true love isnt even real, true love isnt real even for chad because they only love his bone structure

I truly WANTED to love women, I REALLY REALLY wanted to, but they are just incapable of loving me and for that I cant love them either

I have nothing but the desire to make money and be successful and own my own hospital one day

I wanted to stand outside my hospital in my little white coat and feel proud about something for once

I don't think I'm going to make it, I think its time to finish it and throw in the towel

If you hang in there & become doc you can help other incels & save up for surgery.

 

[Skoga]

See you next week inkwell