100% - Not an incel
Before anyone calling me a fakecel, please read first. I think some of the things I share here might be insighful and valuable to some.
The term incel, is misleading. It is focused on sex. Sex alone means nothing. You can have one night stand with some drunk girl, and the next day you might be worthless human to her. Sex today, is worth little. Because you don’t make babies, you don’t get to create a family. Having kids and a family is what makes life worth living. Seeing your grandchildren when you are older. What are you supposed to do when you are 60 without grandchildren or a family? Money means nothing.
I had over 1 million dollars in 2021. I gave away a lot, and spent a lot on strippers, escorts. I felt like a wanted to die, every day. The money I had felt worthless. I have lost and spent most of this money. There was no other way. My mental health is so fucked up that there is no way for me to make good desicions anymore. What kills me, is the brutal loneliness and lack of hope for the future. I don’t even have a future to care about.
I had sex last week, with some drunk girl. She ghosted me after. I truly wish, I never did it. Going out every day, trying to make myself feel less lonely in desperation, feels so fucking bad. Only someone that feels true brutal loneliness knows what I am talking about.
I live in a Country where I have no family. I don’t talk to my family anymore. I have no one. Everyone feels like a stranger to me. Money didn’t help. Sex didn’t help. The only help I can get from outside, is if I meet a young girl around age 20, that is not a fat whore, who dedicates her life to me, and after 2-3 years, I would start to feel like a normal human being again. But this is not possible. No fucking girl will do that. They can give away their body, because sex is cheap. But real commitment, that is impossible to find. These women are all damaged.
The only hope I have to live now, is to accept that I will never get what I need from a woman, a family, commitment. They all flake. Money does not help, and I will lose everything in the end when I feel like this, because I don’t function as a human anymore. The only hope I have to live, is to not talk to anyone anymore. Make my home an ok place to be. Make healthy food. Think of my mind as something I need to protect from the disgusting world and its people. It is a sad reality. But if I continue to try to meet people, and to desperately try to make myself feel less lonely by being around strangers, I will most likely die this year or early next year.
It is truly horrible. The only way is to protect yourself. Have something your life, that no one can take from you, that you value. Your mind. Your knowledge. Don’t talk to anyone. Let them think you are dead. Make healthy food, enjoy making it. Love yourself, because no one else will fucking love you. Don’t lie to yourself, because you will know, you will always know. Everyone in this world is a psycopath, protect yourself. Love yourself. You know deep inside, you do your best. It is not your fault. It is not your fault. If you know that you are a good person, doesn’t matter what others falsely believe. Love yourself. You are worth loving, so love yourself. Fuck everyone else. It was never your fault
The term incel, is misleading. It is focused on sex. Sex alone means nothing. You can have one night stand with some drunk girl, and the next day you might be worthless human to her. Sex today, is worth little. Because you don’t make babies, you don’t get to create a family. Having kids and a family is what makes life worth living. Seeing your grandchildren when you are older. What are you supposed to do when you are 60 without grandchildren or a family? Money means nothing.
I had over 1 million dollars in 2021. I gave away a lot, and spent a lot on strippers, escorts. I felt like a wanted to die, every day. The money I had felt worthless. I have lost and spent most of this money. There was no other way. My mental health is so fucked up that there is no way for me to make good desicions anymore. What kills me, is the brutal loneliness and lack of hope for the future. I don’t even have a future to care about.
I had sex last week, with some drunk girl. She ghosted me after. I truly wish, I never did it. Going out every day, trying to make myself feel less lonely in desperation, feels so fucking bad. Only someone that feels true brutal loneliness knows what I am talking about.
I live in a Country where I have no family. I don’t talk to my family anymore. I have no one. Everyone feels like a stranger to me. Money didn’t help. Sex didn’t help. The only help I can get from outside, is if I meet a young girl around age 20, that is not a fat whore, who dedicates her life to me, and after 2-3 years, I would start to feel like a normal human being again. But this is not possible. No fucking girl will do that. They can give away their body, because sex is cheap. But real commitment, that is impossible to find. These women are all damaged.
The only hope I have to live now, is to accept that I will never get what I need from a woman, a family, commitment. They all flake. Money does not help, and I will lose everything in the end when I feel like this, because I don’t function as a human anymore. The only hope I have to live, is to not talk to anyone anymore. Make my home an ok place to be. Make healthy food. Think of my mind as something I need to protect from the disgusting world and its people. It is a sad reality. But if I continue to try to meet people, and to desperately try to make myself feel less lonely by being around strangers, I will most likely die this year or early next year.
It is truly horrible. The only way is to protect yourself. Have something your life, that no one can take from you, that you value. Your mind. Your knowledge. Don’t talk to anyone. Let them think you are dead. Make healthy food, enjoy making it. Love yourself, because no one else will fucking love you. Don’t lie to yourself, because you will know, you will always know. Everyone in this world is a psycopath, protect yourself. Love yourself. You know deep inside, you do your best. It is not your fault. It is not your fault. If you know that you are a good person, doesn’t matter what others falsely believe. Love yourself. You are worth loving, so love yourself. Fuck everyone else. It was never your fault
