I've recently started to watch episodes of the show "freaky eaters" just because i found it to be somewhat entertaining. But after a while, i started watching other shows, covering similar topics, like my 600lb life. Then it damned on me. I came to the realization, that the reason why i like watching those shows is heavily correlated to my inceldom. The people in those shows are suffering, and quit a lot of them, live an even more depressing life than i do. Which makes me feel slightly less shit about myself. I also realized that this is the very same reason, why I used to enjoy watching gore videos. Because seeing somebody suffer, something much worse than inceldom. Managed to lesser my pain, and even made me feel somewhat, grateful for the things i have. That i can lie in my bed, drinking tea, while watching videos of people suffering, helps lessen my own suffering. Sure i know that this sounds quit morbid, but it still helps me cope. After all, i'm not hurtig anyone. Those people would've suffered nevertheless. Me watching them suffer, doesn't makes their suffering worse, but it lessens mine. Hence i'm in the right, lol. Can anybody relate?
