shii410
I'm not black I'm O. J.
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today was not a good day for me. some very serious irl shit happened and now I have no idea what to do. over the past few hours I’ve been throwing up from stress, every part of my body is aching and trembling, at its worst I was literally clenching my chest because I was so anxious it felt like my heart was about to stop. I don’t really know if I’m going to have a future anymore.
but throughout all that I couldn’t shed a single tear. it’s not that I’m super stoic and don’t feel pain or whatever, in fact I’m experiencing some pretty intense emotional trauma rn. it’s just that my body doesn’t respond to pain by crying anymore. I guess it’s a result of socialization, crying makes you look pathetic and if no one empathizes with you or shows any kind of sympathetic reaction to it then eventually your body learns not to do it anymore.
but throughout all that I couldn’t shed a single tear. it’s not that I’m super stoic and don’t feel pain or whatever, in fact I’m experiencing some pretty intense emotional trauma rn. it’s just that my body doesn’t respond to pain by crying anymore. I guess it’s a result of socialization, crying makes you look pathetic and if no one empathizes with you or shows any kind of sympathetic reaction to it then eventually your body learns not to do it anymore.