So i figure that, people only post when they got sex. For doing this u have to close ur virgin account and add a letter or etc. to ur username. Discovery was brutal for me, now i understand why and how people comment on posts, why his friends so happy about. I looked upon my old close friends that stay with me and used lots of drugs, they got so much less posts,(1 and 6). Now i understand why they're so mad for me, i got these boys cucked into drugs. Nwm i am virgin but they may had some other life. I got once 300plus posts, so i started archiving from year to now on. I had 42 at last, now its 0, as deserved. I was knowing that i got way late my peers, but i just learned tht everyone knows that im a big joke. I try to keep my mind nice to stop hurting me but u know thats a hard thing to do and i don't have lots of encouragement. But it helps me to accept who am i are, they can go to moon but at least now i got on my own shoes. Some of my friends try to help me in past but i was so blinded cos i got no intercourse history. I started fapping before holding someone's hand and didnt even kiss a girl at age of 23. I was clever u know, i switched so many cities and schools, and every one i liked make a deep mark on my mind, cos i cant get the opportunity to be with them. Years go by and i still hurting by females cos i got so much proud, i can't accept who am i, but i can't be who i wanna be. They understand, but i didn't. So i started using drugs for feel lika living among others. I did actually but this sticked me to where i at, bigger problems and lower willpower, i started livin da mud, sun were there also lots of bugs and shit. i keep some boys near me, and said to them; whatever u do, dont go near females, that's the one area u can't sin cos it will explode on ur wife and ur family.' They believed, some of them stick with me for 5 years. Took me as mentor but i don't know at all, i can only think.
So instagram is off books now, i hate that one friend started me to follow females, i use drugs and follow them, they are all in my college by the way. So they all understand im a joke, i can't even graduate, its my sixth year. I like to live my life again
So instagram is off books now, i hate that one friend started me to follow females, i use drugs and follow them, they are all in my college by the way. So they all understand im a joke, i can't even graduate, its my sixth year. I like to live my life again
