I quit like 3 and a half or 4 years ago but I drank so much my life is still irreparably damaged by it. The only reasons I'm not drinking anymore is that I feel too sorry, ashamed and guilty to put my parents through it again, so I'll never drink again while they're alive. But I also stopped at the time because I physically couldn't drink anymore, I ruined my health so much it was painful to drink. I was vomiting bile for hours after very little alcohol towards the end there, felt like death. Also fucked my heart a bit in addition to my pancreas. Teeth are fucked too. Maybe the brain too, idk. But that's nothing compared to how I threw away my future, education, big chunk of parent's life savings. And all the things I did to them and put them through.
Uhh, I drank alone in my room but I still managed to go through that. A few times I contacted people through the internet, said embarrassing, humiliating and cringe shit. Ohh right I also went black out drunk to uni multiple times, almost forgot about that.