Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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It's gotten pretty bad. Now pretty much every sentence that comes out of my mouth is bungled somehow. I mix up words, I omit words, I seem to mumble instead of talking clearly, I'm a general mess. I forget things in seconds, forget what I'm doing, my mind feels foggy, numb etc...
Idk if it's from rotting too much, or if those 2 years as an alcoholic when I got blackout drunk every single day on more than a liter of vodka did more damage to my brain than I thought, as if good fucking to my teeth and my pancreas and my heart wasn't enough. But I haven't had a drink in 3 or 4 years (my mind is so fucked I can't even remember the years right, I can't fucking remember when shit happened in my life). So maybe it's from rotting, maybe rotting did this.
It's really starting to get weird, even my parents noticed me fucking up more and more when I talk. Or maybe it's cause I barely speak out loud, much less my native language, since I just spend my days rotting in front of my laptop consuming English content, everything in English. And maybe all the other things are just a coincidence, just me being overly panicky. Maybe I'm just too anxious and need to just relax, slow down and it'll all work out.
Idk if it's from rotting too much, or if those 2 years as an alcoholic when I got blackout drunk every single day on more than a liter of vodka did more damage to my brain than I thought, as if good fucking to my teeth and my pancreas and my heart wasn't enough. But I haven't had a drink in 3 or 4 years (my mind is so fucked I can't even remember the years right, I can't fucking remember when shit happened in my life). So maybe it's from rotting, maybe rotting did this.
It's really starting to get weird, even my parents noticed me fucking up more and more when I talk. Or maybe it's cause I barely speak out loud, much less my native language, since I just spend my days rotting in front of my laptop consuming English content, everything in English. And maybe all the other things are just a coincidence, just me being overly panicky. Maybe I'm just too anxious and need to just relax, slow down and it'll all work out.