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I just wanna be loved, but don’t think I’m worthy
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Even though we’re past it, I haven’t been able to get out of this depressive funk. I don’t know what to do.
I just wish I had some real friends to distract myself. But I’m not even good enough for that.
Forget about having a relationship.
Damn I should have never watched that fucking Steven Universe movie after not having watched it in a while. Now I’m gaining an unhealthy obsession with the Spinel character because I relate to her (yes, her. It’s a fictional character, no big deal) and I think it’s making me feel worse as now I’m starting to think I’m a toxic person that deserves to not have someone else in my life.
My parents are so worried about me. They even thought of me getting psychiatric help because I’m just laying in bed all day, drained. Because I’m stuck and won’t try to make it better. We got into a fight last night and I ended up running upstairs and crying in bed. To the point where the blankets felt wet on my face. We made up but I haven’t felt any better.
I don’t know what to do.
I wonder if I should stop reading blackpill shit for a while. Even if it’s true it’s poisoning my thoughts.
I just wish I had some real friends to distract myself. But I’m not even good enough for that.
Forget about having a relationship.
Damn I should have never watched that fucking Steven Universe movie after not having watched it in a while. Now I’m gaining an unhealthy obsession with the Spinel character because I relate to her (yes, her. It’s a fictional character, no big deal) and I think it’s making me feel worse as now I’m starting to think I’m a toxic person that deserves to not have someone else in my life.
My parents are so worried about me. They even thought of me getting psychiatric help because I’m just laying in bed all day, drained. Because I’m stuck and won’t try to make it better. We got into a fight last night and I ended up running upstairs and crying in bed. To the point where the blankets felt wet on my face. We made up but I haven’t felt any better.
I don’t know what to do.
I wonder if I should stop reading blackpill shit for a while. Even if it’s true it’s poisoning my thoughts.