There has never been a time where I've lost sleep over a /specific/ foid.
Throughout my years of elementary school, middle school, and even high school, not one foid had ever given me the light of day. This instilled the idea that it was already over for me from a young age (despite not knowing what the "blackpill" even was). I had nothing in common with them, I didn't know how to approach or even speak to them. The closest I would get would be from group projects where I'm forced to work together with a female student or two. But the interactions would be strictly school-assignment focused and nothing more.
The sheer lack of experience with the opposite gender is the explanation for why I've never developed a oneitis to lust for.
I bought into the cope of "Oh, I'll just find someone when I'm older!"
Every foid that's been my peer couldn't care less about my existence. No foid has ever looked my way willingly. No foid has ever wanted to talk to me.
That being said, I still hate the fact that I haven't been able to experience a genuine connection (or any connection at all). The idea of love itself is something I romanticize, but to apply it on a single person is very alien to me.
I'm assuming that this is the norm here; just making this post to detail how hopeless it's been for me.
Throughout my years of elementary school, middle school, and even high school, not one foid had ever given me the light of day. This instilled the idea that it was already over for me from a young age (despite not knowing what the "blackpill" even was). I had nothing in common with them, I didn't know how to approach or even speak to them. The closest I would get would be from group projects where I'm forced to work together with a female student or two. But the interactions would be strictly school-assignment focused and nothing more.
The sheer lack of experience with the opposite gender is the explanation for why I've never developed a oneitis to lust for.
I bought into the cope of "Oh, I'll just find someone when I'm older!"
Every foid that's been my peer couldn't care less about my existence. No foid has ever looked my way willingly. No foid has ever wanted to talk to me.
That being said, I still hate the fact that I haven't been able to experience a genuine connection (or any connection at all). The idea of love itself is something I romanticize, but to apply it on a single person is very alien to me.
I'm assuming that this is the norm here; just making this post to detail how hopeless it's been for me.
