Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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Reality is starting to catch up with me. I've rotted for years because I was so depressed, anxious and with all other kinds of problems, but now I'm slowly being forced out.
I don't like it, life is hard enough for normal people. And yet I fucked my life up in every conceivable way so I'm incredibly stressed and anxious at all times.
I can't even put it into words, it would be such a long list of why my life is fucked, of all the sources of my stress and anxiety.
I'm drowning in all this, there's no way out. It's literally getting worse and worse, and I can even see the ways in which it will get worse and I don't like it one bit. God damn why is life so incredibly hard, how can it possibly be this bad?
I know I sound like a whiny bitch, I have all my limbs and I'm not handicapped or disfigured in any way (well, except my teeth and some invisible health problems). So I should be grateful. But god damn my life is so fucked that I literally can't even start describing the ways in which it's fucked because it's so fundamentally fucked in so many ways I wouldn't remember them all and I don't know where to start.
I don't like it, life is hard enough for normal people. And yet I fucked my life up in every conceivable way so I'm incredibly stressed and anxious at all times.
I can't even put it into words, it would be such a long list of why my life is fucked, of all the sources of my stress and anxiety.
I'm drowning in all this, there's no way out. It's literally getting worse and worse, and I can even see the ways in which it will get worse and I don't like it one bit. God damn why is life so incredibly hard, how can it possibly be this bad?
I know I sound like a whiny bitch, I have all my limbs and I'm not handicapped or disfigured in any way (well, except my teeth and some invisible health problems). So I should be grateful. But god damn my life is so fucked that I literally can't even start describing the ways in which it's fucked because it's so fundamentally fucked in so many ways I wouldn't remember them all and I don't know where to start.