I feel I am the most 'incel' incel and my dad is partly responsible for this. I am 22 years old hugless and kissless virgin. In fact i cannot remember the last time i talked to or touched a girl. My dad resembles a daily wage labourer from an indian village. Terribly ugly. I inherited several of his flawed features. I have a disproportionately large lose and massive protruding lips on a small and long face. Besides these i have the most beta male characterstics packed into one like an autistic voice and 5.5.inches girly wrists.
In a conservative family, throughout my teens my dad strictly discouraged me from even considering hanging out with the opposite sex. ( Life according to him is study, work remaining a virgin throughout and in late 20s get yourself into an arranged marriage with a used up ugly bitch and end up being an unloved beta male provider for the remainder of the sick life. ) Gradually, I lost all confidence and could not initiate a conversation with girls. Even worse i cannot call a girl by her name. I aint joking. And my awful bad looks were the icing on the cake. I missed out on teen love. I dont really want sex. What i crave and miss most is the mutual 2 sided affection, kissing and hugging in each others arms. Now already 22, my youth is slowly dying away as well and in 3-4 years ageing will start showing up destroying whatever little is left in me lookwise and confidence wise. An oldcell i will be. Truly over then.
My copes and chess and coding.
In a conservative family, throughout my teens my dad strictly discouraged me from even considering hanging out with the opposite sex. ( Life according to him is study, work remaining a virgin throughout and in late 20s get yourself into an arranged marriage with a used up ugly bitch and end up being an unloved beta male provider for the remainder of the sick life. ) Gradually, I lost all confidence and could not initiate a conversation with girls. Even worse i cannot call a girl by her name. I aint joking. And my awful bad looks were the icing on the cake. I missed out on teen love. I dont really want sex. What i crave and miss most is the mutual 2 sided affection, kissing and hugging in each others arms. Now already 22, my youth is slowly dying away as well and in 3-4 years ageing will start showing up destroying whatever little is left in me lookwise and confidence wise. An oldcell i will be. Truly over then.
My copes and chess and coding.
