SuicideFuel my parents are responsible for my inceldom

[benzocel]

shit genes of course fucking suck but i might have at least been able to live as some ltn if it werent for my fucking parents and i fucking despise that fact. i would have probably still been single but it wouldnt be so fucking miserable.

- child sexual abuse at 3-4 (could have looked after me better)
- traumatised by domestic abuse (i dont give a shit about foids being beaten but it was my mum being beaten black and blue by my dad and i was 6 YEARS OLD FFS) - this scarred me for life and is the biggest reason as to why i ended up being a mentalcel with a horrible abused dog syndrome
- mental issues started at seven - started being somewhat depressed and generally withdrew from everything - even more asocial from earlier (i didnt say anything the first 3 years of my life)
- sexual abuse again at 8
- suicidally depressed from preteens
- dad randomly throwing fits and beating me and my sibling who killed himself last year
- what i consider the ABSOLUTE worst part is my dad and mum making me a fucking cuck by bluepilling the shit out of me from when i could start comprehending language by saying i should be the better man and not fight even if someone were to bully me and that i should take it since thats what the truly great men of history used to do
- spent my entire pre teens and teenage years rotting at home playing vidya - literally never went outside unless it was for school - my parents didnt do shit about it
- got bullied in college for my looks and because of being a mentalcel - couldnt socialise well and that made me an easy target
- even when i entered college at nineteen they would treat me like a literal child - calling my peers who werent even exactly close friends to see if i'd had food or not - i appreciate the concern sure but this is SOCIAL SUICIDE MAN wtf how are they so fucking retarded
- sexually abused again at 19 - feel so fucking embarrassed typing this shit out but I COULDNT DEFEND MYSELF EVEN AT FUCKING NINETEEN BECAUSE OF MY PARENTS
- suicide attempt at 20
- now im 21 planning on neeting and then eventually kmsing

i genuinely have nothing left in my soul. no will to do anything at all and it fucking sucks.

 

[highschoolcel]

Brutal

I'll pray for you brocel

 

[benzocel]

Brutal

I'll pray for you brocel

thanks brocel i appreciate it a lot

 

[copemaxx9002]

Brutal

I'll pray for you brocel

 

[kaan]

brutal.

my situation isn't anywhere bad as yours but i know what it's like to have fucked up parents. i think i'd have been better off if on the day i was born, my parents left me on the side of the road

 

[bruhwtf]

Grecel Posts:0

 

[supersoldier]

Such experiences makes you high inhib paranoid schizo.

It's over.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

what the fuck bro, do you literally live with an uncle that diddles you all the time. there has to be a better way to organize your life than this. it would be better to get the state and police involved than live like this.

 

[benzocel]

what the fuck bro, do you literally live with an uncle that diddles you all the time. there has to be a better way to organize your life than this. it would be better to get the state and police involved than live like this.

i know it sounds like a bit much but i cant defend myself for shit. i go on panic mode and i literally become unable to say anything or do something. also all these 3 instances were 3 different people. 2nd time it was my sibling and i didnt say anything about it to my parents. 3rd time it was a cab guy so i didnt say anything out of embarrassment and rightfully so not being able to defend yourself from another guy as an adult is too fucking embarrassing

 

[benzocel]

Such experiences makes you high inhib paranoid schizo.

It's over.

it is such a brutal combo too like im always fantasising about going er on my "friends" in college for bullying me and making a laughing stock out of me. meanwhile 5 minutes later when i actually encounter them i can barely even muster a no or say anything normally without seeming like a level 100 retard

 

[supersoldier]

it is such a brutal combo too like im always fantasising about going er on my "friends" in college for bullying me and making a laughing stock out of me. meanwhile 5 minutes later when i actually encounter them i can barely even muster a no or say anything normally without seeming like a level 100 retard

As high inhib social outcast, it's better to isolate from society if possible.

 

[benzocel]

As high inhib social outcast, it's better to isolate from society if possible.

thats what im planning on doing starting from may. im gonna go neet and not leave my house. i just hope to go i will have enough money to get some hard drugs for copemaxxing that i can eventually use to od and die

 

[Shitskin_Shitlife]

I would have unironically been better off as an orphan. Brown parents are mental illness factories.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

i know it sounds like a bit much but i cant defend myself for shit. i go on panic mode and i literally become unable to say anything or do something. also all these 3 instances were 3 different people. 2nd time it was my sibling and i didnt say anything about it to my parents. 3rd time it was a cab guy so i didnt say anything out of embarrassment and rightfully so not being able to defend yourself from another guy as an adult is too fucking embarrassing

cab drivers are shady as fuck and always have been, good luck with taking better care of yourself

 

[Fifita]

They always had a miserable existence and they were hellbent made ensure i existed the same

 

[Lonelyus]

As high inhib social outcast, it's better to isolate from society if possible.