![benzocel](/data/avatars/m/63/63367.jpg?1713996504)
benzocel
Recruit
★★
- Joined
- Apr 21, 2024
- Posts
- 141
shit genes of course fucking suck but i might have at least been able to live as some ltn if it werent for my fucking parents and i fucking despise that fact. i would have probably still been single but it wouldnt be so fucking miserable.
- child sexual abuse at 3-4 (could have looked after me better)
- traumatised by domestic abuse (i dont give a shit about foids being beaten but it was my mum being beaten black and blue by my dad and i was 6 YEARS OLD FFS) - this scarred me for life and is the biggest reason as to why i ended up being a mentalcel with a horrible abused dog syndrome
- mental issues started at seven - started being somewhat depressed and generally withdrew from everything - even more asocial from earlier (i didnt say anything the first 3 years of my life)
- sexual abuse again at 8
- suicidally depressed from preteens
- dad randomly throwing fits and beating me and my sibling who killed himself last year
- what i consider the ABSOLUTE worst part is my dad and mum making me a fucking cuck by bluepilling the shit out of me from when i could start comprehending language by saying i should be the better man and not fight even if someone were to bully me and that i should take it since thats what the truly great men of history used to do![Bigbrain :bigbrain: :bigbrain:](data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7)
- spent my entire pre teens and teenage years rotting at home playing vidya - literally never went outside unless it was for school - my parents didnt do shit about it
- got bullied in college for my looks and because of being a mentalcel - couldnt socialise well and that made me an easy target
- even when i entered college at nineteen they would treat me like a literal child - calling my peers who werent even exactly close friends to see if i'd had food or not - i appreciate the concern sure but this is SOCIAL SUICIDE MAN wtf how are they so fucking retarded
- sexually abused again at 19 - feel so fucking embarrassed typing this shit out but I COULDNT DEFEND MYSELF EVEN AT FUCKING NINETEEN BECAUSE OF MY PARENTS
- suicide attempt at 20
- now im 21 planning on neeting and then eventually kmsing
i genuinely have nothing left in my soul. no will to do anything at all and it fucking sucks.
- child sexual abuse at 3-4 (could have looked after me better)
- traumatised by domestic abuse (i dont give a shit about foids being beaten but it was my mum being beaten black and blue by my dad and i was 6 YEARS OLD FFS) - this scarred me for life and is the biggest reason as to why i ended up being a mentalcel with a horrible abused dog syndrome
- mental issues started at seven - started being somewhat depressed and generally withdrew from everything - even more asocial from earlier (i didnt say anything the first 3 years of my life)
- sexual abuse again at 8
- suicidally depressed from preteens
- dad randomly throwing fits and beating me and my sibling who killed himself last year
- what i consider the ABSOLUTE worst part is my dad and mum making me a fucking cuck by bluepilling the shit out of me from when i could start comprehending language by saying i should be the better man and not fight even if someone were to bully me and that i should take it since thats what the truly great men of history used to do
- spent my entire pre teens and teenage years rotting at home playing vidya - literally never went outside unless it was for school - my parents didnt do shit about it
- got bullied in college for my looks and because of being a mentalcel - couldnt socialise well and that made me an easy target
- even when i entered college at nineteen they would treat me like a literal child - calling my peers who werent even exactly close friends to see if i'd had food or not - i appreciate the concern sure but this is SOCIAL SUICIDE MAN wtf how are they so fucking retarded
- sexually abused again at 19 - feel so fucking embarrassed typing this shit out but I COULDNT DEFEND MYSELF EVEN AT FUCKING NINETEEN BECAUSE OF MY PARENTS
- suicide attempt at 20
- now im 21 planning on neeting and then eventually kmsing
i genuinely have nothing left in my soul. no will to do anything at all and it fucking sucks.
Last edited: