RageFuel My family ruined the only hobby I genuinely enjoyed

[Caribbbean-cel]

Back when I was 12, I was sort of blackpilled? Like, I knew those girls would never like me, anyway, I ended up picking up drawing, as escapism and stuff, and I truly enjoyed it.

Thanks to drawing I forgot totally about those JBs in school not paying attention to me, it was fun, I even exchanged drawings with a "friend" (turned out to be a fag).

But then my dumb cunt sister started mocking me and my drawings, it wasn't like, light teasing mocking, it was totally malicious, I went crying to mom so she would do something, she didn't do anything, and dad is never home.
I ended up rage quitting.

Now 8 years later, when I draw the only thing i feel is stress, picking up a pencil is painful. I have no hobbies and I must cope.


Here's a recent example of my current skill

 

[TheDarkEnigma]

I can draw somewhat but I struggle drawing people at angles.

 

[Transcended Trucel]

Big incel trait. My low IQ parents ruined many of my self-improvement plans when I was younger with bullshit chores, blocking me from going outside, not willing to pay for tutoring/classes.

Not only do we have shit DNA but unsupportive scummy Subhuman parents. we have to work far harder than normal fags for less progress. But nothing else can be done.

 

[Caribbbean-cel]

I can draw somewhat but I struggle drawing people at angles.

When the pose is very foreshortened is sort of hard yes.
I can do angles decently, the problem is, it's no longer fun as it used to be
Picking up mags and drawing all the people I saw there, although they looked uncanny but i improved.
Now I can do decent but feels like a chore, what's the point?./

Big incel trait. My low IQ parents ruined many of my self-improvement plans when I was younger with bullshit chores, blocking me from going outside, not willing to pay for tutoring/classes.

Not only do we have shit DNA but unsupportive scummy Subhuman parents. we have to work far harder than normal fags for less progress. But nothing else can be done.

Yup, 0 support.
I don't even know how to cope at this point.
I can code sure (it's related to what I'm studying) but i feel totally neutral towards computer science, Wich is an advantage I guess since I don't feel any perfectionism while studying

 

[AFsShouldntExist]

Drawing women would just make me more tilted/depressed

 

[TheDarkEnigma]

When the pose is very foreshortened is sort of hard yes.
I can do angles decently, the problem is, it's no longer fun as it used to be
Picking up mags and drawing all the people I saw there, although they looked uncanny but i improved.
Now I can do decent but feels like a chore, what's the point?./


Yup, 0 support.
I don't even know how to cope at this point.
I can code sure (it's related to what I'm studying) but i feel totally neutral towards computer science, Wich is an advantage I guess since I don't feel any perfectionism while studying

Best I can draw.

 

[Cope_Time]

I wish I could draw ngl, best I can do is toddler tier stuff.

 

[Caribbbean-cel]

Drawing women would just make me more tilted/depressed

Nah, I got a reference pack from an artist, and all the girls are ugly there, but they have well defined muscles Wich is what I want.

Best I can draw.
View attachment 593454

Cute.
Just needs more Loomis (?)

I wish I could draw ngl, best I can do is toddler tier stuff.

I guess anyone could learn

 

[TheDarkEnigma]

Cute.
Just needs more Loomis (?)

I know the eyes look a bit weird, I always try to correct that.