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I work at a drive thru convenient store,basically I sling beer,cigarettes, drinks and snacks to people while they don't have to get out of their car. I used to do this at another place to save up for a car. I finally got a shitty car for 2000. But anyways.
I feel ugly at my job,I can tell by the looks I get,yeah there's some nice people that come through but it doesnt out weigh the bad experiences. Like today a guy came in and said where is so and so at? I told him he's off today,well wheres this person at, where's this person at? I said they already worked that day and went home. He says well no offense but there's nobody good working, there's nobody that I like here, I feel lonely. I kind of slightly smiled in the situation and looked away,but it really started getting to me,like I'm not the type to put up with that. The next time he says it even though he's bigger then me and might want to fight me, i think I'm going to say there hasn't been any customers i like come in either.
Then I got to see all the couples that come in,one guy showed me his wife's lingerie underwear that he just bought her,and he says they look big but she really isn't that big. Then brags that he's got a high paying job now that gave him a credit card that he could spend 20k a day if he wanted too. While I'm a little unwanted peasant making minimum wage slaving for people.
Then there is all the older fat women who all have wedding rings,and if they are single they would for sure reject me if I tried. Even if they were 55 years old. I've noticed that even 50 something year olds idolize movie stars or one I knew said marry me with a picture of slash.
I've even seen couples where I'm like how does he get her but I'm rejected,and I've seen couples where it makes sense with the looks or the height.
Lastly I tried asking a co worker how old she was and if she's single,she's probably a 3/10 in looks, short and kind of fat with nice big boobs. I thought I had a chance because she was nice and not that good looking,she says sorry she has a fiance. Today I told the older girl co worker I said has there been any rumor about me yesterday, she said no but tell me what it is. I said I asked so and so if she was single and she said she has a fiance. She says I seen him earlier today. I said what did he look like. He was tall and a big guy with curly hair. I said oh the typical guy girls go for. She says i guess?? I said girls usually like big and tall. She first says well i just want a good guy. Then she admits her type is tall and skinny. But she ain't trying to date anyone right now. Then I try telling her some other stories about girls and she had a disgusted disinterested face,and a customer was coming so I stopped talking and didn't bring that back up.
At the end of the night after she left I feel like I shouldn't tell her nothing else because she didn't want to hear it,she probably thinks I'm ugly and don't really like me either as a co worker or friend. I feel like that's how everyone thinks of me even if they are nice,I always see their eyes look away even though I try to look people in their eyes.
I feel ugly at my job,I can tell by the looks I get,yeah there's some nice people that come through but it doesnt out weigh the bad experiences. Like today a guy came in and said where is so and so at? I told him he's off today,well wheres this person at, where's this person at? I said they already worked that day and went home. He says well no offense but there's nobody good working, there's nobody that I like here, I feel lonely. I kind of slightly smiled in the situation and looked away,but it really started getting to me,like I'm not the type to put up with that. The next time he says it even though he's bigger then me and might want to fight me, i think I'm going to say there hasn't been any customers i like come in either.
Then I got to see all the couples that come in,one guy showed me his wife's lingerie underwear that he just bought her,and he says they look big but she really isn't that big. Then brags that he's got a high paying job now that gave him a credit card that he could spend 20k a day if he wanted too. While I'm a little unwanted peasant making minimum wage slaving for people.
Then there is all the older fat women who all have wedding rings,and if they are single they would for sure reject me if I tried. Even if they were 55 years old. I've noticed that even 50 something year olds idolize movie stars or one I knew said marry me with a picture of slash.
I've even seen couples where I'm like how does he get her but I'm rejected,and I've seen couples where it makes sense with the looks or the height.
Lastly I tried asking a co worker how old she was and if she's single,she's probably a 3/10 in looks, short and kind of fat with nice big boobs. I thought I had a chance because she was nice and not that good looking,she says sorry she has a fiance. Today I told the older girl co worker I said has there been any rumor about me yesterday, she said no but tell me what it is. I said I asked so and so if she was single and she said she has a fiance. She says I seen him earlier today. I said what did he look like. He was tall and a big guy with curly hair. I said oh the typical guy girls go for. She says i guess?? I said girls usually like big and tall. She first says well i just want a good guy. Then she admits her type is tall and skinny. But she ain't trying to date anyone right now. Then I try telling her some other stories about girls and she had a disgusted disinterested face,and a customer was coming so I stopped talking and didn't bring that back up.
At the end of the night after she left I feel like I shouldn't tell her nothing else because she didn't want to hear it,she probably thinks I'm ugly and don't really like me either as a co worker or friend. I feel like that's how everyone thinks of me even if they are nice,I always see their eyes look away even though I try to look people in their eyes.
