I can't accept my purpose as a genetic dead end.
Let's face the facts:
There is no one out there for men like me, who lack the ornaments that signal genetic fitness. That's unfortunately how sexual selection works, some males are just supposed to never reproduce.And i'm one of those males.
I am unlovable.
As an ugly, unlovable man i know my purpose is to suffer and to provide for genetically superior men and the women they have sex with.
I am supposed to not get what i desire most in life, which is friendship and love, but chase it regardless for the benefit of biologically more valuable people.
I am also supposed to endure bullying and gaslighting and be a punching bag for the benefit of those same people who have what i want but can't get (love and friendship).
That is the fate of all non-reproducing males in any species with female mate choice. No point in denying it.
Sex and reproduction is the sole purpose of all life.
Every single neurotransmitter, every single hormone, every single body part has evolved for the sole purpose of survival and reproduction.
There is no happiness without fullfillment of my sole biological imperative, because your brain has evolved to not allow you to be happy if you're unable to reproduce. Your own brain knows you are a biological failure, and is programmed to make you fall into a depression and off yourself in order to not waste the resources of genetically superior people.
You can't fake genetic fitness.
Women have evolved to recognize infallable signs of genetic fitness and health like height, facial forward growth, shoulder width or facial dimorphism.
You can't cheat nature without going under the knife to have your bones broken and moved to the place where they are supposed to be in the eyes of women.
Your money, your status, your personality and your confidence are meaningless if you don't pass the looks threshold.
You simply can't trick women into loving you, since they only fall in love with infallable signs of genetic quality.
I can't make up for the developmental milestones i missed out on.
The past bullying, the past rejections, the past depressions, they are all a part of me now. I am socially, spiritually and mentally retarded for the rest of my life. Teenage friendship and love is supposed to turn a boy into a man. I missed out on that too, so i will always be the same 14 year old bullied boy stuck in a grown man's body.
How can i accept that fate?
Since i see the world too clearly, i can't cope anymore. Is there any point in living 70 more years as an ugly unwanted virgin?
Let's face the facts:
There is no one out there for men like me, who lack the ornaments that signal genetic fitness. That's unfortunately how sexual selection works, some males are just supposed to never reproduce.And i'm one of those males.
I am unlovable.
As an ugly, unlovable man i know my purpose is to suffer and to provide for genetically superior men and the women they have sex with.
I am supposed to not get what i desire most in life, which is friendship and love, but chase it regardless for the benefit of biologically more valuable people.
I am also supposed to endure bullying and gaslighting and be a punching bag for the benefit of those same people who have what i want but can't get (love and friendship).
That is the fate of all non-reproducing males in any species with female mate choice. No point in denying it.
Sex and reproduction is the sole purpose of all life.
Every single neurotransmitter, every single hormone, every single body part has evolved for the sole purpose of survival and reproduction.
There is no happiness without fullfillment of my sole biological imperative, because your brain has evolved to not allow you to be happy if you're unable to reproduce. Your own brain knows you are a biological failure, and is programmed to make you fall into a depression and off yourself in order to not waste the resources of genetically superior people.
You can't fake genetic fitness.
Women have evolved to recognize infallable signs of genetic fitness and health like height, facial forward growth, shoulder width or facial dimorphism.
You can't cheat nature without going under the knife to have your bones broken and moved to the place where they are supposed to be in the eyes of women.
Your money, your status, your personality and your confidence are meaningless if you don't pass the looks threshold.
You simply can't trick women into loving you, since they only fall in love with infallable signs of genetic quality.
I can't make up for the developmental milestones i missed out on.
The past bullying, the past rejections, the past depressions, they are all a part of me now. I am socially, spiritually and mentally retarded for the rest of my life. Teenage friendship and love is supposed to turn a boy into a man. I missed out on that too, so i will always be the same 14 year old bullied boy stuck in a grown man's body.
How can i accept that fate?
Since i see the world too clearly, i can't cope anymore. Is there any point in living 70 more years as an ugly unwanted virgin?
