I just want to have tunnel vision\Flow State and devote 160 hours x week for years on end. 140-160 hours a week non-stop for 20 years. I abstain and refrain from both s*x and violence but I seek the deep comfort found in sustained desperation.
I need a cause, a leader, a messiah, a movement, a womb to spring from and to dwell dead unto.
Politics? ideological movement? Im not a retard so I dont want to get scammed by some scientology pyramid scheme religion or a chomo cult in the mountains.
I need a cause, a leader, a messiah, a movement, a womb to spring from and to dwell dead unto.
Politics? ideological movement? Im not a retard so I dont want to get scammed by some scientology pyramid scheme religion or a chomo cult in the mountains.
