Writing this story will be painful for me. Here it is. Im in college right now, in my classes, professors never show us movies, this is one thing about college that makes me feel a little bit better, I hate watching movies because of what happened to me during my time as a student attending Elementary, Middle, and high school (K-12).
In K-12, my teachers had a lot of free time with the class. During this freetime, the teachers showed us movies, especially Disney movies. In these movies, love and romance stories were featured. In one of the movies, there was guy who fell in love with a girl he met in a college lecture, they had so many things in common, they were inseparable, as they got older they bought a house, got married, and they established an organization together to combat mental illness. In a movie about a famous black MLB player, the black guy was a baseball player in the 1920s, an Era where blacks faced discrimination. Even though he was black and was dealing with all sorts of problems due to his race, he had a loving/caring looksmatch wife that was there for him during the good times and the bad times, he never felt lonely because he had her love. She was by his side no matter what.
While in class, I would just imagine what it would feel like to be loved and cared for by a girl. I wanted it so badly, daydreamed every single day about being in love with a girl. My life would be great if I had a decent gf, all my problems will go away. Even if i had problems with my finances, heath, family, or anything else it wouldn't matter if had a gf. All I wanted was at least one girl by my side, it's not too much to ask for. Oh well, I have to learn to live without love. Now as young adult, i avoid movies with love stories because i do not want to be reminded of what i dont have, and i dont want to have flashbacks of the movies that i watched as a kid. Now, i like to watch action or war movies because they usually dont contian love stories. At Least I have the incel community to cheer me up. Shout out to @hierophant and @General Alek for being supportive friends
In K-12, my teachers had a lot of free time with the class. During this freetime, the teachers showed us movies, especially Disney movies. In these movies, love and romance stories were featured. In one of the movies, there was guy who fell in love with a girl he met in a college lecture, they had so many things in common, they were inseparable, as they got older they bought a house, got married, and they established an organization together to combat mental illness. In a movie about a famous black MLB player, the black guy was a baseball player in the 1920s, an Era where blacks faced discrimination. Even though he was black and was dealing with all sorts of problems due to his race, he had a loving/caring looksmatch wife that was there for him during the good times and the bad times, he never felt lonely because he had her love. She was by his side no matter what.
While in class, I would just imagine what it would feel like to be loved and cared for by a girl. I wanted it so badly, daydreamed every single day about being in love with a girl. My life would be great if I had a decent gf, all my problems will go away. Even if i had problems with my finances, heath, family, or anything else it wouldn't matter if had a gf. All I wanted was at least one girl by my side, it's not too much to ask for. Oh well, I have to learn to live without love. Now as young adult, i avoid movies with love stories because i do not want to be reminded of what i dont have, and i dont want to have flashbacks of the movies that i watched as a kid. Now, i like to watch action or war movies because they usually dont contian love stories. At Least I have the incel community to cheer me up. Shout out to @hierophant and @General Alek for being supportive friends
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