NeverEvenBegan
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I've been having one the entire day. I feel like my heart is pounding, I feel the pulse in the left side of my neck. I'm restless, agitated, irascible.
My mom has some devices who measure blood pressure and the heart rate, and they seem fine. She also gave me some sort of pill that is supposed to calm me down.
Usually I cope by keeping my mind occuped with other things. Like listening to music at the same time I'm playing a game. The double stimulation is usually enough, but it's not this time.
The truth is, I've been angry every day for the past few months. I am very stressed out. Health problems. I have an ingrown toenail that I ignored for 3 months hoping it would get better. It didn't and now I need to go to a specialized doctor next week. I have no job, no girlfriend, being a virgin at 30, comparing myself to my peers who are doing so much better in every way. No future prospects for me. Save from winning the lottery, I don't see my life improving.
I read talking to other people helps. I talked to my mom, I opened up, started to drop some blackpills. I told her a lot things. I told how inhumane it is never experiencing hand holding, hugs. I told her I feel emasculated. I told her how much of a loser I am. She clearly cares about me and I am very lucky for that. That is lifefuel. But at the same time, she pisses me off with the brain dead normie advice.
So after telling her all this shit, she hits me with the ''don't lose your confident'' and ''just talk to girls''. She doesn't get it. She will never get it. Normies can't get it. And that made it worse. I am now more stressed out. Writing this very post made me angrier and worse off.
I took a shower and changed my clothes to feel clean. I made myself a mint tea. Usually doing all these things combined helped me. Now it doesn't. I can't shake this feeling.
My heart has been pounding all the way. That's how it feels like, even though apparently blood pressure and heart rate are fine. None of my copes work today. I feel bad. I am breathing air, but it feels like it doesn't have enough oxygen. I feel deprived of oxygen.
What do you do when you have panic attacks?
My mom has some devices who measure blood pressure and the heart rate, and they seem fine. She also gave me some sort of pill that is supposed to calm me down.
Usually I cope by keeping my mind occuped with other things. Like listening to music at the same time I'm playing a game. The double stimulation is usually enough, but it's not this time.
The truth is, I've been angry every day for the past few months. I am very stressed out. Health problems. I have an ingrown toenail that I ignored for 3 months hoping it would get better. It didn't and now I need to go to a specialized doctor next week. I have no job, no girlfriend, being a virgin at 30, comparing myself to my peers who are doing so much better in every way. No future prospects for me. Save from winning the lottery, I don't see my life improving.
I read talking to other people helps. I talked to my mom, I opened up, started to drop some blackpills. I told her a lot things. I told how inhumane it is never experiencing hand holding, hugs. I told her I feel emasculated. I told her how much of a loser I am. She clearly cares about me and I am very lucky for that. That is lifefuel. But at the same time, she pisses me off with the brain dead normie advice.
So after telling her all this shit, she hits me with the ''don't lose your confident'' and ''just talk to girls''. She doesn't get it. She will never get it. Normies can't get it. And that made it worse. I am now more stressed out. Writing this very post made me angrier and worse off.
I took a shower and changed my clothes to feel clean. I made myself a mint tea. Usually doing all these things combined helped me. Now it doesn't. I can't shake this feeling.
My heart has been pounding all the way. That's how it feels like, even though apparently blood pressure and heart rate are fine. None of my copes work today. I feel bad. I am breathing air, but it feels like it doesn't have enough oxygen. I feel deprived of oxygen.
What do you do when you have panic attacks?