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I think we all have been there.
The year was 2010, I just finished high school, a virgin, with maybe 2 or 3 friends, total. After having to study Nietzsche for the tests, I actually liked his way of seeing the world, it was acid and dark, there was superior and inferior, people who cope with religion are morons and you can be egotistical and look for yourself. Cool.
I made a promise to myself that when I started university, I would be really social, hit on girls, all that shit, I also started being fooled by PUA scammers like RSD, lurked TheRedPill subreddit, also watched some self-help fools like Elliot Hulse like so many other incels in that era. I would also read cringy blogs like ChateauHeartiste. I had the typical self-help mindset that everything bad that happened to you, and everything good that didn't happen, is 100% your fault, this mindset is not only completely false, it will completely destroy you inside because you will always blame yourself for everything ("if only I could go back in time, I would be popular and have sex because now I know what's up") which is ironic considering you supposedly know everything right now yet you can't have sex to save your life.
The first time I ever heard about the black pill knowledge (also before it got the name) was when ER went ER. I could see myself in him, but I also believed back then that I was good looking (I am not) and I thought ER had the looks but it was his fault for not getting laid (he didn't had the looks and no, it was not his fault)
Anyway, I could only really swallow the blackpill when I watched @FACEandLMS videos back in 2017, those gave me a reality check like I've never felt before, it was like for the first time in my entire fucking life, I could see all pieces falling into place, everything started to make sense, from the day I was born to right now, it was a complete awakening of the mind and soul.
I could finally relax, leave it all behind.
It was not my fault.
The year was 2010, I just finished high school, a virgin, with maybe 2 or 3 friends, total. After having to study Nietzsche for the tests, I actually liked his way of seeing the world, it was acid and dark, there was superior and inferior, people who cope with religion are morons and you can be egotistical and look for yourself. Cool.
I made a promise to myself that when I started university, I would be really social, hit on girls, all that shit, I also started being fooled by PUA scammers like RSD, lurked TheRedPill subreddit, also watched some self-help fools like Elliot Hulse like so many other incels in that era. I would also read cringy blogs like ChateauHeartiste. I had the typical self-help mindset that everything bad that happened to you, and everything good that didn't happen, is 100% your fault, this mindset is not only completely false, it will completely destroy you inside because you will always blame yourself for everything ("if only I could go back in time, I would be popular and have sex because now I know what's up") which is ironic considering you supposedly know everything right now yet you can't have sex to save your life.
The first time I ever heard about the black pill knowledge (also before it got the name) was when ER went ER. I could see myself in him, but I also believed back then that I was good looking (I am not) and I thought ER had the looks but it was his fault for not getting laid (he didn't had the looks and no, it was not his fault)
Anyway, I could only really swallow the blackpill when I watched @FACEandLMS videos back in 2017, those gave me a reality check like I've never felt before, it was like for the first time in my entire fucking life, I could see all pieces falling into place, everything started to make sense, from the day I was born to right now, it was a complete awakening of the mind and soul.
I could finally relax, leave it all behind.
It was not my fault.