Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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Looks always matter, but once you're 30+ the game is a bit different. Women have been through the promiscuous phase already, most are looking to settle down. Some will settle down with guys that aren't exactly handsome, as long as they have everything else in order. Edit: It's not that I want to betabux, I'm saying for guys like me what else would there be? What other kind of "ascension" do you imagine for guys like us?
So I'll always remain an incel . I just have too many issues. My avoidance of people and autism or whatever the fuck I have first and foremost. That goes in hand with my habits. Ever since I was a kid I rushed home to just rot in front of a screen. Got much worse as a teenager, and once the depression started at ~13 my habits got out of control where I'd just rot at home as much as possible. I'd literally squeeze every possible minute I could to just lie in bed with my laptop next to me. Even getting a haircut every half a year or so would be a pain in the ass cause it meant an hour or two of free time being out of the house that could have been spent in bed with my laptop. School always was sheer torture and I'd rush home, I'd want to go home as soon as I got there.
My point is, no matter where life takes me, I know what will happen. Doesn't matter where I'll work or whatever, I know for a fact that my life will consist of wageslaving then rushing home as soon as possible to just rot in my bed with my laptop next to me. Doesn't help that due to all the cringe/humiliating moments in my life due to my autism and other stuff, I've learned to be very quiet.
I actually think I'm a very charismatic person, but I need to really warm up and feel comfortable with someone to display that. And I'll never do that, not again, I'm way too scarred to the point of PTSD to warm up to people again. Not that I'll get the chance, adults get few chances, you need to have a social circle by now or you'll never get one. Actually I may even not be avoidant, or I just became as a result of all the bad shit that happened, including bullying (not really the physical kind) and things like that. So when you add all these, I'm sure I'll always be an incel, even if there was a woman that found me suitable despite my bald head or other physical flaws, I'd never get the chance to meet her and warm up to her anyway.
So I'll always remain an incel . I just have too many issues. My avoidance of people and autism or whatever the fuck I have first and foremost. That goes in hand with my habits. Ever since I was a kid I rushed home to just rot in front of a screen. Got much worse as a teenager, and once the depression started at ~13 my habits got out of control where I'd just rot at home as much as possible. I'd literally squeeze every possible minute I could to just lie in bed with my laptop next to me. Even getting a haircut every half a year or so would be a pain in the ass cause it meant an hour or two of free time being out of the house that could have been spent in bed with my laptop. School always was sheer torture and I'd rush home, I'd want to go home as soon as I got there.
My point is, no matter where life takes me, I know what will happen. Doesn't matter where I'll work or whatever, I know for a fact that my life will consist of wageslaving then rushing home as soon as possible to just rot in my bed with my laptop next to me. Doesn't help that due to all the cringe/humiliating moments in my life due to my autism and other stuff, I've learned to be very quiet.
I actually think I'm a very charismatic person, but I need to really warm up and feel comfortable with someone to display that. And I'll never do that, not again, I'm way too scarred to the point of PTSD to warm up to people again. Not that I'll get the chance, adults get few chances, you need to have a social circle by now or you'll never get one. Actually I may even not be avoidant, or I just became as a result of all the bad shit that happened, including bullying (not really the physical kind) and things like that. So when you add all these, I'm sure I'll always be an incel, even if there was a woman that found me suitable despite my bald head or other physical flaws, I'd never get the chance to meet her and warm up to her anyway.
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