That was my first thought. And then my second thought was "this dude is so high IQ and out of my league doing projects like this," it made me realize how useless I really am.
Some people have more energy. The guy looks normie tier so probably has more social support than you. Don't try to compare with Normies tbh. Just with your past self. As long as your doing better than your past self. Your doing good.
In terms of interesting hobbies like this, I'm not doing much better than my past self. In fact, I'm doing worse. Nowadays, instead of playing video games all day, I watch other people on youtube playing video games all day.
Not tonight, but I will be tomorrow.
I wish I had the passion and the skill to do this, but I hate software engineering and I suck at it. I wonder if my hangup comes from the fact that I just hate doing code professionally? Maybe having it as a boring fucking job has completely killed any interest I might once have had in it as a hobby.
I don't, actually, I'm a failed software engineer. Spent only 4 of the 10 years since grad actually working in the field, and even at that, I was underpaid or part-time. Both jobs were thanks to a government vocational placement agency because of my disability. I'm autistic: and I have no idea what people look for in resumes or interviews.
Yes, basically every normie with friends, familiy and a gf has more energy than an incel.
Such an apt description of our condition. I do, of course, possess that abyss where sources of motivation should be. I've been trying to fill it with looking forward to things like "getting high" and "going to my favorite bar for fish fry at the end of each week" to try to motivate me, but I find it's just not good enough.
