i swear to god. i do everything my father tells me to do. be friendly, have "confidence", fix my posture. i do all of these things. yet every time i talk to someone they give me this look:
I don't know how to describe it but its a subtle look of disgust mixed with extreme confusion.
im just talking and this is how these people look at me. and then sometimes if i get "close" with someone, or when we talk often. all of a sudden theyll start being mean to me and give me signals that they dont want to talk to me anymore.
like today, two of these guys i usually talk to, all of a sudden. the first one is telling me they dont want to talk, i was trying to start a conversation and he was just like "nahahannahanah just stop please. dont discuss, dont discuss"
ah... okay.
then i think to myself, maybe hes not in the mood to talk. then i close my eyes pretend to sleep only to hear his voice laughing along with other people.
just another clarification for those that dont know. i live in hong kong now, i geomaxxed as a happa (half white, half chinese) because i thought if id surround myself with people that look like me i wouldnt be ostrichsized like i am in the west. turns out its the exact fucking same.
nothing ever changes, no copes ever work, its the same god damn thing everywhere i go.
I don't know how to describe it but its a subtle look of disgust mixed with extreme confusion.
im just talking and this is how these people look at me. and then sometimes if i get "close" with someone, or when we talk often. all of a sudden theyll start being mean to me and give me signals that they dont want to talk to me anymore.
like today, two of these guys i usually talk to, all of a sudden. the first one is telling me they dont want to talk, i was trying to start a conversation and he was just like "nahahannahanah just stop please. dont discuss, dont discuss"
ah... okay.
then i think to myself, maybe hes not in the mood to talk. then i close my eyes pretend to sleep only to hear his voice laughing along with other people.
just another clarification for those that dont know. i live in hong kong now, i geomaxxed as a happa (half white, half chinese) because i thought if id surround myself with people that look like me i wouldnt be ostrichsized like i am in the west. turns out its the exact fucking same.
nothing ever changes, no copes ever work, its the same god damn thing everywhere i go.
