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Is this really all there is?
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- Jan 22, 2021
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Having ocd which makes you just go insane from pain when youre alone. Like i mean true agony. I don't mean just feeling blue, like actually laying on the ground crying day after day just begging god that the pain would stop.
But at the same time the ocd gets better when im around people and speak to people and socialize. But nobody wnats to socialize. I mean nobody. I have a coworker who is a 50 year leftist, who i just hate on every level. But i constantly try to atart conversations with him just to numb the pain in my head. But he fucking ignores most of the time.
At home noone talks to me either. Neither online. People are literally cousing me mental and physical pain by isolating me. Physical because of the headaches that i get from the ocd. How cruel is that?
Knowing social interaction is the only cure to your pain but everybody just denies you that because you're not attractive or at least entertaining to them.
But at the same time the ocd gets better when im around people and speak to people and socialize. But nobody wnats to socialize. I mean nobody. I have a coworker who is a 50 year leftist, who i just hate on every level. But i constantly try to atart conversations with him just to numb the pain in my head. But he fucking ignores most of the time.
At home noone talks to me either. Neither online. People are literally cousing me mental and physical pain by isolating me. Physical because of the headaches that i get from the ocd. How cruel is that?
Knowing social interaction is the only cure to your pain but everybody just denies you that because you're not attractive or at least entertaining to them.