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WawelDragon1683
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Back in june last year i went to see a psychiatrist because of my obsessive compulsive disorder. I hoped he would help me with it. It wasn't that bad but it was making my life much more tiring so i wanted it gone. By the way i was also really depressed at that time (or so i thought, soon i realised what true depression feels like). I only did this because this is lterally the advice every retard willl give you if you tell them you have ocd, this and therapy (which i also went to, but that's another thing entirely)
Well basically the fucker prescribed me SSRI pills. So i took them. I didn't even expect them to work. I was very sceptical but i would have never thought they would do what they did. I took half a pill for seven days and a whole pill for three days. Well pretty much right away i stopped being able to sleep, i could only sleep fo a few hours and it was a very light sleep, i felt nauseous ll the time, but that were the good parts. I stopped feeling joy. I started being incapable of feeling happy about anything at all. Then came the anxiety. Constantly worsening, day after day. My obsessions and compulsions i cured by myself long ago started coming back.
I called the faggot doctor and he said all of this was normal, and that it's just a side effect and it will pass. So i kept taking them. When i started taking the whole pill a day. All of those things worsened. I was unable to sleep. I felt agonizing anxiety 24/7. I became truly suicidal. So i stopped taking them. And then came the withdrawal. Honestly i have never felt anything more hellish. I never knew anxiety could get this bad. I felt so much pain and misery. I can't even describe it. It was pure hell. Imagine being the most anxious you have ever been x10 24/7 and not even being able to sleep.
The pain didn't stop though. It didn't pass After a few days i tried taking the pills again to make the pain stop but it didn't. So i stopped taking them. The pain continued. For days, weeks and months. I felt agonizing axiety all the time. The only symptoms that went away were insomnia and nausea. Anxiety and anhedonia never did. Eventually after around 3 months. Slowly day after day it started to get better. Now about 8 months later i can say that i'm almost not suicidal anymore, I still feel anxiety every waking second and im still incapable of feeling happy but i'm not thinking about killing myself all the time anymore. I can almost function nomally.
The fact that i haven't killed myself during these last few months is kind of amazing. I'm quite sure most people wouldn't survive the agony i did. Anyway I'm pretty sure my brain is damaged permanently. I don't think i will ever be happy again or not anxious. I'm not sure if my brain is broken physically or am i just mentally scarred by all the suffering, but i think i won't ever be okay agan. Regardless all i want is for people with ocd reading this to NEVER TAKE SSRIs. Don't. You might actually ruin your whole fucking life like i did.
(If you want a safe alternative i would suggest either st john's wort or inositol).
Well basically the fucker prescribed me SSRI pills. So i took them. I didn't even expect them to work. I was very sceptical but i would have never thought they would do what they did. I took half a pill for seven days and a whole pill for three days. Well pretty much right away i stopped being able to sleep, i could only sleep fo a few hours and it was a very light sleep, i felt nauseous ll the time, but that were the good parts. I stopped feeling joy. I started being incapable of feeling happy about anything at all. Then came the anxiety. Constantly worsening, day after day. My obsessions and compulsions i cured by myself long ago started coming back.
I called the faggot doctor and he said all of this was normal, and that it's just a side effect and it will pass. So i kept taking them. When i started taking the whole pill a day. All of those things worsened. I was unable to sleep. I felt agonizing anxiety 24/7. I became truly suicidal. So i stopped taking them. And then came the withdrawal. Honestly i have never felt anything more hellish. I never knew anxiety could get this bad. I felt so much pain and misery. I can't even describe it. It was pure hell. Imagine being the most anxious you have ever been x10 24/7 and not even being able to sleep.
The pain didn't stop though. It didn't pass After a few days i tried taking the pills again to make the pain stop but it didn't. So i stopped taking them. The pain continued. For days, weeks and months. I felt agonizing axiety all the time. The only symptoms that went away were insomnia and nausea. Anxiety and anhedonia never did. Eventually after around 3 months. Slowly day after day it started to get better. Now about 8 months later i can say that i'm almost not suicidal anymore, I still feel anxiety every waking second and im still incapable of feeling happy but i'm not thinking about killing myself all the time anymore. I can almost function nomally.
The fact that i haven't killed myself during these last few months is kind of amazing. I'm quite sure most people wouldn't survive the agony i did. Anyway I'm pretty sure my brain is damaged permanently. I don't think i will ever be happy again or not anxious. I'm not sure if my brain is broken physically or am i just mentally scarred by all the suffering, but i think i won't ever be okay agan. Regardless all i want is for people with ocd reading this to NEVER TAKE SSRIs. Don't. You might actually ruin your whole fucking life like i did.
(If you want a safe alternative i would suggest either st john's wort or inositol).
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