Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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There was always something in my life that I could blame for my lack of success with women.
I was a fat kid, so I blamed it on that. In highschool I became anorexic, barely ate, and yet obviously I had no success. People told me I looked too bony, they were kinda freaked out. Also there was that whole acne shit going on that still is on my face. Later in life I was an alcoholic for a while so I got to blame it on that. Then my balding became pretty obvious (started very early) and I got to blame it on that.
But I never really thought of myself as ugly. Pretty much thought that if I lost weight, got buff and took care of my acne and maybe stopped my balding somehow, I'd get some.
Eventually though, I stopped lying to myself. I now know I'm ugly. But there's that tiny thought in my head that always makes me thing that maybe I'm not that ugly and it's just my imagination.
I was a fat kid, so I blamed it on that. In highschool I became anorexic, barely ate, and yet obviously I had no success. People told me I looked too bony, they were kinda freaked out. Also there was that whole acne shit going on that still is on my face. Later in life I was an alcoholic for a while so I got to blame it on that. Then my balding became pretty obvious (started very early) and I got to blame it on that.
But I never really thought of myself as ugly. Pretty much thought that if I lost weight, got buff and took care of my acne and maybe stopped my balding somehow, I'd get some.
Eventually though, I stopped lying to myself. I now know I'm ugly. But there's that tiny thought in my head that always makes me thing that maybe I'm not that ugly and it's just my imagination.
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