I do the closest thing to nothing all day. I literally just lay in bed. Obviously a human being can't physically just do NOTHING, so I have my laptop next to me. But I don't do anything on it that actually uses my brain, nothing that I could call "doing something. To put it in another way, it's nothing that a person could write in their journal and say "I did X today". No, I do nothing.
For some noise and activity to prevent my brain from getting too bored, I play entire seasons of sitcoms. I just click the folder and it opens in a video player, like 11 seasons straight, so for many many hours I don't even have to click anything other than pause and unpause. I don't watch a lot of new things cause for some reason my brain finds them too boring, or maybe it even finds them stressful idk, I guess I like how sitcoms are a steady source of small amounts of dopamine. Even if they're not funny (cause I don't really laugh at them), they just feel lively and they're a bit loud and active so it's enough to keep my brain content.
Just sitcoms isn't enough though, so I sometimes stop actively watching them and just leave them as background noise. And I browse the internet. It's basically just doing nothing all over again, just post after post of pointless drivel that barely gives me enough dopamine to click a little more. And 5 minutes after I read it I forget it.
Other than that my only other activity is gaming. And I don't do much of it, I think I enjoyed it when I was a kid but for years I've been doing it just hoping to experience some fun again, but I just keep searching and searching for the game that will scratch the itch, I'm literally chasing the dragon.. Most of the time I spend looking for games, every day. Literally a lot of time spent just contemplating what to play, searching the net for a good game. And maybe I install something and then I uninstall it in a few hours at most, usually just after 10 minutes. Hell, I even found games that I should like, and I do kinda like, but I guess my brain is too used to doing nothing and watching sitcoms, so actually playing feels like it takes too much involvement and it's tiring in a certain way. But for example, I played a bit of Factorio for a few days, then I swore to myself that this is the game that I will play a lot, and for 3 months I haven't touched it. At least I haven't installed it and uninstalled hundreds of times like I did with other games.
Idk, it's weird. I'm doing nothing and yet doing anything BUT this rotting in bed and watching sitcoms, anything other than that is very stressful/anxiety-inducing/tiring. I guess my only interest, the only thing in life that I find comfortable and enjoyable is rotting in bed, watching stuff and browsing the internet. Unfortunately I've been like this since I was a kid, nothing else ever interested me much and I always rushed in front of the screen. I remember getting to school and wishing out loud I'd be home.
Though even after doing nothing I'm always tired. I sleep so much and I still feel tired. But this lifestyle is literally gold, it's the best time of my life. Now I'll have to go back to uni, this will suck, I hate work and it gives me anxiety. Ohh god in less than 9 months I'll have to get a job too, that will make me dream of being back to these times of doing nothing. I prefer doing nothing, it's so much better than anything else in life.
For some noise and activity to prevent my brain from getting too bored, I play entire seasons of sitcoms. I just click the folder and it opens in a video player, like 11 seasons straight, so for many many hours I don't even have to click anything other than pause and unpause. I don't watch a lot of new things cause for some reason my brain finds them too boring, or maybe it even finds them stressful idk, I guess I like how sitcoms are a steady source of small amounts of dopamine. Even if they're not funny (cause I don't really laugh at them), they just feel lively and they're a bit loud and active so it's enough to keep my brain content.
Just sitcoms isn't enough though, so I sometimes stop actively watching them and just leave them as background noise. And I browse the internet. It's basically just doing nothing all over again, just post after post of pointless drivel that barely gives me enough dopamine to click a little more. And 5 minutes after I read it I forget it.
Other than that my only other activity is gaming. And I don't do much of it, I think I enjoyed it when I was a kid but for years I've been doing it just hoping to experience some fun again, but I just keep searching and searching for the game that will scratch the itch, I'm literally chasing the dragon.. Most of the time I spend looking for games, every day. Literally a lot of time spent just contemplating what to play, searching the net for a good game. And maybe I install something and then I uninstall it in a few hours at most, usually just after 10 minutes. Hell, I even found games that I should like, and I do kinda like, but I guess my brain is too used to doing nothing and watching sitcoms, so actually playing feels like it takes too much involvement and it's tiring in a certain way. But for example, I played a bit of Factorio for a few days, then I swore to myself that this is the game that I will play a lot, and for 3 months I haven't touched it. At least I haven't installed it and uninstalled hundreds of times like I did with other games.
Idk, it's weird. I'm doing nothing and yet doing anything BUT this rotting in bed and watching sitcoms, anything other than that is very stressful/anxiety-inducing/tiring. I guess my only interest, the only thing in life that I find comfortable and enjoyable is rotting in bed, watching stuff and browsing the internet. Unfortunately I've been like this since I was a kid, nothing else ever interested me much and I always rushed in front of the screen. I remember getting to school and wishing out loud I'd be home.
Though even after doing nothing I'm always tired. I sleep so much and I still feel tired. But this lifestyle is literally gold, it's the best time of my life. Now I'll have to go back to uni, this will suck, I hate work and it gives me anxiety. Ohh god in less than 9 months I'll have to get a job too, that will make me dream of being back to these times of doing nothing. I prefer doing nothing, it's so much better than anything else in life.
