It's Over Failed new year no-fap but it doesn't even make sense

[sinclair_silence]

Today I was sleeping in, and in that half-awake, half-conscious state. And so I did not have full control over what I was doing. I am not even sure what happened but I was aware of something, somehow. When I was fully awake again, I thought that, maybe it was just a dream. But when I finally got up to shower, the cum-stains indicated otherwise I feel horrible. It would have been one week by the end of today.

Part of the problem is my unhealthy, depressive sleep schedule, because I am on the winter break now. It makes the whole task harder (pun may or may not be intended). Because it takes hours to fall asleep, and I don't wake up early and then this shit happens wtf

 

[oofy]

No fap is a meme, just don’t overdo it

 

[Lonelyus]

Today I was sleeping in, and in that half-awake, half-conscious state. And so I did not have full control over what I was doing. I am not even sure what happened but I was aware of something, somehow. When I was fully awake again, I thought that, maybe it was just a dream. But when I finally got up to shower, the cum-stains indicated otherwise I feel horrible. It would have been one week by the end of today.

Part of the problem is my unhealthy, depressive sleep schedule, because I am on the winter break now. It makes the whole task harder (pun may or may not be intended). Because it takes hours to fall asleep, and I don't wake up early and then this shit happens wtf

I sleep all day!

 

[sinclair_silence]

No fap is a meme, just don’t overdo it

True but it bothers me that I essentially failed outside my control. Sleep should be a refuge, not an agent of chaos.

 

[EnglishCel]

No fap is stupid.

 

[sinclair_silence]

I sleep all day!

A luxury not all of us have… I start school again in about a couple weeks

 

[sinclair_silence]

No fap is stupid.

And so is compulsive jerking off—I wanted a change this year from being such a filthy animal

 

[Ron.Belgrade]

And so is compulsive jerking off

 

[EnglishCel]

And so is compulsive jerking off—I wanted a change this year from being such a filthy animal

You just have to have a system like I do I masturbate everyday in my bed at night to keep the need for women away.

 

[Gnosiscel]

It seems that higher spiritual demonic forces may have intervened and took control over your body which in the first place isnt truly yours. On what day of nofap are you if I may ask?

 

[Lonelyus]

A luxury not all of us have… I start school again in about a couple weeks

I am severely depressed

 

[sinclair_silence]

I masturbate everyday in my bed at night to keep the need for women away.

True, I've done something similar, but it's Pavlovian-conditioned me to the point where I associate bed with masturbation and because I have trouble sleeping this was resulting in me lying awake with boners for hours in the past week, fml

 

[sinclair_silence]

I am severely depressed

Same but some of us still have to grind you know, society doesn't care.

 

[sinclair_silence]

It seems that higher spiritual demonic forces may have intervened and took control over your body which in the first place isnt truly yours. On what day of nofap are you if I may ask?

This was/would have been the 7th day since the year started on a Monday hence one week. Incidentally, back when I tried NNN last year I also lasted about one week, but that time the failure was definitely intentional.

 

[EnglishCel]

True, I've done something similar, but it's Pavlovian-conditioned me to the point where I associate bed with masturbation and because I have trouble sleeping this was resulting in me lying awake with boners for hours in the past week, fml

I tried to stop masturbating and I could handle the urges to masturbate but I would just start doing things like sniffing and taking extra long stares at women so I have to masturbate for my own good so I don't get in trouble with the law again.

 

[Pancakecel]

Nofap is a retarded reddit meme

 

[sinclair_silence]

Nofap is a retarded reddit meme

I don't agree. I think reddit can get pretty retarded as a site but no-fap is just people sincerely trying to improve their lives.

 

[sinclair_silence]

so I don't get in trouble with the law again.

Oh damn what do you mean by again

 

[EnglishCel]

Oh damn what do you mean by again

I got arrested for Assault Actual Bodily Harm and Malicious Communications against the staff at the college I went to.

 

[sinclair_silence]

I got arrested for Assault Actual Bodily Harm and Malicious Communications against the staff at the college I went to.

Fuck well in that case do whatever you need to prevent that again I guess

 

[EnglishCel]

Fuck well in that case do whatever you need to prevent that again I guess

Also sexual harassment against staff and other students. (Not hardcore stuff just sniffing and invading personal space to get close to women to well sniff them and of course a lot of supposedly sexual jokes and comments.)

 

[Gnosiscel]

This was/would have been the 7th day since the year started on a Monday hence one week. Incidentally, back when I tried NNN last year I also lasted about one week, but that time the failure was definitely intentional.

The first effects of semen retention are starting to be visible after roughly one week. If you ejaculated while you were in a half consciouss state then it is clear indication that some powers/beings want you to fail and to be under their control. Have you sensed any form physical/spiritual presence during the whole ordeal? It is possible that the greys or other "supernatural" beings had something to do with this