Venting Going Fucking Crazy

[Pancakecel]

Sick and fucking tired of the weird looks/ little laughs people THINK they are subtly giving out as I walk past them. I only ever go outside to stock up on booze, just got back now. TWICE, two groups, of two people walked past me on the sidewalk, I politely moved to my side. The first people stared at me like i was the elephant man, and this little elderly lady gave a sarcastic laugh as she passed by, and then 2nd group of people this middle aged ((them)) looking couple walked past me and gave me dirty looks as well. I called them wankers as they walked by as i couldn't be dealing with it. Of course they just kept walking and didn't do anything. Cowards. I've had shit like this from male, female, young and old you name it. The day of retribution (on my Tamagotchi) is coming.

 

[Deleted member 27768]

What do you look like?

 

[Pancakecel]

What do you look like?

Round head (see username) small eyes (with heavy bags) and a shitty receding hairline. Additionally, to put the icing on the cake I'm a dickcell. Yeah i probably look angry, of course I'm angry but if its that fascinating to look at, look once and then look away. Its the prolonged stares that really piss me off. I summed it up in my previous post titled My Experiences if anyone gives a shit.

 

[Deleted member 27768]

Round head (see username) small eyes (with heavy bags) and a shitty receding hairline. Additionally, to put the icing on the cake I'm a dickcell. Yeah i probably look angry, of course I'm angry but if its that fascinating to look at, look once and then look away. Its the prolonged stares that really piss me off. I summed it up in my previous post titled My Experiences if anyone gives a shit.

Height ? And weight in kg?

 

[Pancakecel]

Height ? And weight in kg?

Height is the only thing I have going for me, I'm 6ft. I haven't weighted myself in years to be honest, i have a bit of a beer belly so probably overweight. I stopped caring so I let myself go.

 

[Deleted member 27768]

Brutal but hopefully youll get used to it

 

[Pancakecel]

Brutal but hopefully youll get used to it

Me too man, drinking is the only thing that puts my mind at ease to be honest. I work in IT, so because of covid for over the past year I have been able to work from home, which has been so much better. I wont lie, the amount times i have gone to the park on a slow work day, especially during the summer and just got wankered on my lunchbreak was many times ha.

I'm dreading when they make us go back into the office though. Last month I had to go in, because i had to physically set something up there, its a shared office so there's all different people from different companies walking around. As I finished, and was leaving there were two guys chatting, as soon as I walked out one of them just abruptly stopped talking, stared at me, looking like he was trying not to laugh, and then the other just gave me a wide eyed 'what the fuck is that' kinda look.

I must have the worst case of resting bitch face on the planet or something. If there's a god, it feels like he has picked me as an experiment just for the shits and gigs.

 

[AbsolutelyBrutal]

Have you ever been physically assaulted?

 

[Deleted member 6214]

Mate this is something I've been struggling with for god knows how many years. The effect it has on you is substantial. Can't even go for a walk in public without being reacted to negatively. When I go out, I don't pull faces at people or laugh at them, so why do they do it to me? What the fuck is wrong with them bastards?

 

[Pancakecel]

Have you ever been physically assaulted?

No, if someone tried to do that to me I would fight them to be honest. Sometimes i wish someone would just try it on, so i have an excuse to let some anger out and go mental. Several times i have shoulder barged into people, who expected me to make myself 2 dimensional, even though i was on my side of the pavement (this is the UK were talking about so, there's not much fucking space). Its mainly females who seem to feel they should get all the space, especially if they're in a group.

Mate this is something I've been struggling with for god knows how many years. The effect it has on you is substantial. Can't even go for a walk in public without being reacted to negatively. When I go out, I don't pull faces at people or laugh at them, so why do they do it to me? What the fuck is wrong with them bastards?

Im sorry mate, i don't know what the answer is to this shit. For me, its not even about finding a girlfriend/ love anymore, its just basic human respect I would like. I don't think that's too much to ask for.

 

[AbsolutelyBrutal]

No, if someone tried to do that to me I would fight them to be honest. Sometimes i wish someone would just try it on, so i have an excuse to let some anger out and go mental. Several times i have shoulder barged into people, who expected me to make myself 2 dimensional, even though i was on my side of the pavement (this is the UK were talking about so, there's not much fucking space). Its mainly females who seem to feel they should get all the space, especially if they're in a group.

Be glad you are tall ngl, if you were short you would've gotten jumped many times for sure.
Not trying to downplay your pain, but I believe you would be treated less harshly if you got buffed.
What are the main face failos you have? You might be able to surgery your way into low tier normie depending on how brutal your face is.

 

[Pancakecel]

Be glad you are tall ngl, if you were short you would've gotten jumped many times for sure.
Not trying to downplay your pain, but I believe you would be treated less harshly if you got buffed.
What are the main face failos you have? You might be able to surgery your way into low tier normie depending on how brutal your face is.

Yes, you're right. But I need to somehow get myself out of this mental rut/ prison I have been in for the past several years. My motivation is just at an all time low, but I would like to try gym celling. In school I was fairly athletic, but I still had comments from girls/ guys about my retarded head shape. Fortunately at the time I had a good group of friends so I didn't feel so bad.

Even once, when I was 12 or so i went to go hang out, with what I thought were mates and they all started chanting 'Melon Head' in this public park. About 10 of them must have done it. I ran away and cried. Sounds funny now i guess. Video games were a great cope back then, i literally got so excited about getting/ playing new games, that it cancelled out shit like that. Now, in my mid twenties games just don't hit the same. I still play them though.

 

[AbsolutelyBrutal]

Yes, you're right. But I need to somehow get myself out of this mental rut/ prison I have been in for the past several years. My motivation is just at an all time low, but I would like to try gym celling. In school I was fairly athletic, but I still had comments from girls/ guys about my retarded head shape. Fortunately at the time I had a good group of friends so I didn't feel so bad.

Yeah, definitively gimmaxx, even if you ugly, it's better to be ugly and athletic than ugly and weak. I can't assure you will get shit talked no longer, but I bet you will get shit talked less.

Even once, when I was 12 or so i went to go hang out, with what I thought were mates and they all started chanting 'Melon Head' in this public park. About 10 of them must have done it. I ran away and cried. Sounds funny now i guess.

Might sound ridiculous now, but you were 12 and it's pretty brutal to get rejected like that by people you thought of as peers. It can damage you much worse than normands can ever begin to grasp.

Video games were a great cope back then, i literally got so excited about getting/ playing new games, that it cancelled out shit like that. Now, in my mid twenties games just don't hit the same. I still play them though.

I'm in my mid 20s too and it's true that games just don't hit the same anymore. It feels like wasting time I should be spending productively.

Do you at least have a family you can count on?

 

[Pancakecel]

Yeah, definitively gimmaxx, even if you ugly, it's better to be ugly and athletic than ugly and weak. I can't assure you will get shit talked no longer, but I bet you will get shit talked less.

Might sound ridiculous now, but you were 12 and it's pretty brutal to get rejected like that by people you thought of as peers. It can damage you much worse than normands can ever begin to grasp.

I'm in my mid 20s too and it's true that games just don't hit the same anymore. It feels like wasting time I should be spending productively.

Do you at least have a family you can count on?

Yes, I have family. Recently I had a bit of a breakdown and basically went into the blackpill/ stuff I have experienced in a rant to my parents (i still live at home). Of course, as normies do they just denied it all and told me the same bluepilled platitudes. I sent them clear evidence of the blackpill, and all they said was 'stop looking at that stuff'. That was about a month or so go, we didnt really speak much before, but after that, there's been no talking basically. After i told them about all this stuff, they're probably ashamed of me/ think I'm mentally ill. They're quite liberal and like watching all those tonight show left leaning things with Bill Murr etc.

 

[AbsolutelyBrutal]

Yes, I have family. Recently I had a bit of a breakdown and basically went into the blackpill/ stuff I have experienced in a rant to my parents (i still live at home). Of course, as normies do they just denied it all and told me the same bluepilled platitudes.

I made the same mistake with basically the same answers coming from my mom. But my sister knows I'm not stupid so she started to hear what I had to say and she pretty much agreed with heightpill, facepill, racepill, etc.

After i told them about all this stuff, they're probably ashamed of me/ think I'm mentally ill. They're quite liberal and like watching all those tonight show left leaning things with Bill Murr etc.

Brutal, if they watch that kind of crap, it never began to have a blackpill debate. I'm sorry brocel unfortunately I can't help you much because we are in kinda similar boats, I'm for sure not as ugly as you but I'm a manlet in my mid 20s living with my mom and getting tired of vidya.

I'd pray for you if I were religious, if you want to talk whenever hit me up.

 

[Pancakecel]

I made the same mistake with basically the same answers coming from my mom. But my sister knows I'm not stupid so she started to hear what I had to say and she pretty much agreed with heightpill, facepill, racepill, etc.

Brutal, if they watch that kind of crap, it never began to have a blackpill debate. I'm sorry brocel unfortunately I can't help you much because we are in kinda similar boats, I'm for sure not as ugly as you but I'm a manlet in my mid 20s living with my mom and getting tired of vidya.

I'd pray for you if I were religious, if you want to talk whenever hit me up.

I feel like crying man, thank you so much for listening to me.

 

[AbsolutelyBrutal]

I feel like crying man, thank you so much for listening to me.

No problem man, at least we have this forum to vent with people who get our plight, even if we are milles and cultures away from each other.

 

[SayanimCel]

Mate this is something I've been struggling with for god knows how many years. The effect it has on you is substantial. Can't even go for a walk in public without being reacted to negatively. When I go out, I don't pull faces at people or laugh at them, so why do they do it to me? What the fuck is wrong with them bastards?

I experience this shit too. It's because the outside world is meant for boomers, women and couples - a young, single guy is perceived as a weirdo and a threat because of six decades of feminist fear porn about dangerous men

 

[Pancakecel]

I experience this shit too. It's because the outside world is meant for boomers, women and couples - a young, single guy is perceived as a weirdo and a threat because of six decades of feminist fear porn about dangerous men

Based.