Ok, so this might get me banned or idk but this is my redemption story so i dont really give a fuck i am telling it how it is.
So i was always blackpilled about society from a very young age, constant bullying because i was a poor introverted late bloomer made me drop out from school back when i was 13, i started working because there is nothing else i could do, then when i turned 16 i started doing some illegal shit which i realized wont take me that far
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So i thought about taking a bachelor's exam. (Where i live you can take it even if you are a drop out or 60 years old) but i was poor and i didnt have money for paid special education courses. So i started saving up money and i got in touch with a fag (yes a literal fag) i used to call a friend (we both got bullied so we bonded) [he was bullied for acting like a faggot and you cant do that in sandland, and at that time i didnt realize he was an actual fucking fag until years later
] i got in touch with him because he was going to take the test next year. So he told me about the exam and after that we talked about not so formal shit and he was telling me about school and shit and told me about a female friend of his and how great she was and he showed me their text messages and i kind of liked her tbh (bluepill hit me lmao.
) so next day i went to his school to see what she looked like, (she was hot) and yeah then i realized there is no fucking way i could live without talking to her. But my friend told me she gets dudes approaching her every couple of hours (so seeing shit like this before i knew that she was Chad only and that she would laugh at me if i approached her). So i came up with a plan. I made my friend give me his SM password (he only did this because i found out he was an actual fag but kept it cool with him anyways) and i told him to chat with her normally and then i entered the conversation pretending to be a curry hacker (ok you might be thinking this is the biggest larp on this forum yet but believe me. All of this happened, every single little fucking detail.) And that i hacked his account when he clicked on a free logan paul merch site
he went with it and i talked with the whore and we surprisingly vibed (looking back at that i cant believe she actually talked with a currycel without throwing the fuck up JBC in action, also for the plot hole seeking incels, all of us spoke english so my indian larp worked) ( i couldnt sleep that night, that was the very first time i felt love and peace from someone
) so then i told the fag friend to change his password and kick me out. Skip to the next day, and i created my own fucking SM and i sent her a friend request, and i confessed to her that i wasnt actually indian i was actually her friend's friend and that i hacked his account (in order not to appear as someone who's obsessed or someshit) so we vibed and everything and she asked me for a photo but i dodged the question (for obvious fucking reasons) and i told her that she will see me when she sees me. So the next day i was excited about seeing her, but then i heard from my friend that they talked about me and he told her my name,and the problem is that her foid classmates studied with me before i dropped out
and you know the rest tbh. So i pretended not to see her and i overheard them talk and she said in a literally disappointed voice when she was with her foid friends "that's him?!?!!!???" And i knew it was over but i still tried to approach her but she paid little to no attention to me. And when i got home i texted her telling her what the fuck? And she kind of liked that so she kept me in orbit instead of completely blocking me everywhere
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So during my orbitting phase i did some of the most insane shit ever to get her attention, from graffiti on the school wall to literally sneaking to her school at night and leaving a sweet marker letter on her classroom wall and table (which was there for 2 years until younger zoomers repainted the class, i wonder what they thought about it
) and in some phases she said she liked me (she said she loves me from time to time, which looking back at it now being blackpilled was not really genuine at fucking all for reasons youll see very soon
) so being the low status and unattractive dude that i was, Chad was right around the corner, or should i say Chads. So everyday after she lost interest in me (when Chads came) she used to tease me and tell me about her classmate and schoolmate rich tall Chads ( that was when i got blackpilled about height i never knew foids were into height before) that always approached her and how she likes them and texts them everyday, and whenever i tell her to stop her fucking shit she pretended to cry and shit fucking lmao. (Typical manipulative shit i do whatever but you cant talk back to me) and i shouldve left her then but i couldnt, i was extremely lonely, poor and unwanted (used to play HL
M at 3 AM during the winter after she falls asleep [she might be texting Chad idk] cold, angry and in so much pain, knowing that she is just fucking with me keeping me in orbit and that she is def cheating but i never caught her red handed (if thats what you wanna call it because she always said that we are not in a relationship and then changing her mind the next day and so on.) I had one of the worst months in my life. I didnt understand how this world works, i was so insecure, depressed and fucking suicidal, i became nocturnal and i hated this fucking gay world
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So one day i came across this Chad meme, which hit me like a train. (You should know what i mean) the meme said "i am trying to be the right one for you" which i always said
and "the right one doesnt have to try" which she always said
with Chad on the couch in the background. It was so relatable, i needed to know who made it, it felt so real. And next to it i read incel memes. And i needed to know, despite everything i heard about the incel community. I NEEDED TO FUCKING KNOW MORE. so i lurked a lot on incel subs when they were up on reddit. And i related to everything. Every quote she said, all of her behavior was explained right fucking there. LOOKS MONEY STATUS. HOW WOMEN TREAT CHAD. ORBITTING. etc etc. And it was all so real. So then i completely ghosted her, she texted a few times and when i didnt reply she probably fucked off to Chad (all her texts were about her problems as youd expect from a typical orbitting story)
So fast forward a year and a half later, to August of last year. (The extremely important exam was coming up in a month) i thought about her a lot during that time like the good little cuck i was. And puberty hit me like a train, and i am sorry everyone but i went from a manlet to being 6'1 with a good face and jaw and i developped a decent amount of muscle which really fucking helped. I really wanted to fucking see her again. I used to walk by her house every fucking night but she never saw me, i wanted to make her feel how fucking inferior she and every other fucking worthless "chad" she was talking to(i mog all of them to Valhala and back btw)
So after the government was tired about covid they got rid of the quarantine and we were allowed back to special courses
and my fucking god there she was, i mogged everyone in that class easily, which helped a fucking lot. So i approached her, (she legit didnt recognize me
or forgot my name while i was obsessing over her, developped an inferiority complex because of her, and ruined my mental for the rest of my life cause of her
) so i told her who i was and she couldnt believe it (which cut fucking deep too btw) i also got the teehee Chad treatment, she was paying full attention to me and my existence made her laugh. ( I went home and i was so fucking mad and i was like, all this time she was larping with anxiety and depression while her life was perfect) (friendly reminder to never believd foids when they talk about mental health, they larp a lot) (and funny thing is she always belittled my childhood and mental ruining problems, she always said i dont know what depression is and whenever i ask her what she is so depressed about she doesnt say shit cause she knows her problems are nothing to mine, keep in mind i only realized how much she didnt actually care about me only after i was blackpilled, i always thought she was my guardian angel or some cheesy shit
) so all that 2 year old rage had to come out somehow, i couldnt beat her cause prison because i am low status and she is high status and rich
so i had the perfect plan to absolutely ruin her fucking mental. I manipulated her so hard till she ended up with 0 self esteem. So i sat next to her without giving her any attention while she was talking nonstop, so she could realize how terrible her personality is,how uninteresting she is and how obnoxious she fucking is. I never made eye contact with her ( not cause i was a pussy i was making eye contact with other girls there, but in order to make her feel just as insecure as she made me feel when she didnt give me any attention) and finally i openly flirted with other whores in class while she was right there, i also told her a lot and a fucking lot about my yellow fever (i am not that attracted to Asian whores but i am still attracted to them kind of) (which she got really, reaaaally fucking pissed about and tried to counter with saying that she is into niggers
which only fucking helped me test the personalitypill more by telling her that i am extremely fucking racist, i hate niggers, sharing actual shit from here, i even told her about you guys and then i even got her to say that she will carry my white fucking babies and that she was larping about BBC, surprise surprise
) (also i am not really white, but i am white by Sandland standards and people her call me white. she was also an SJW and she was posting about BLM but yea sure thing typical virtue signaling whore.
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And i started calling her for her hypocrisy and whore behavior etc etc. So in a couple of weeks, i destroyed her self esteem, her values and her mental. She was extremely fucking obedient to me
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The exam was coming up in a couple of weeks and i got rid of her to be able to study because i worked my fucking ass off for it, i literally gave it a fucking lot (the getting money for special courses part, the exam and studying part was easy). And at that time i didnt plan this or anything, i just wanted to fuck her mental not her future
, but because of that she couldnt study the next couple of weeks and she didnt do that good while i aced it. (OKAY AT THIS POINT YOU MIGHT BE SAYING I AM LARPING BECAUSE THIS FUCKING SHIT IS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE, but it really is... That was my redemption arc) she didnt do that good in the exam while i bragged about acing it, she blamed me for that and told me she wasnt going to get that scolarship cause of me which got me pretty fucking triggered like lmao. You had an entire fucking year, what were you doing??? And she said that she couldnt study all year because i was on her mind. Like yeah fucking sure, you are mistaking me for one of your Chadlets. And she kept blaming me until i ghosted her for months. Then one day i was high and bored and wanted some drama so i replied to her. I dont remember the full details tbh but our conversation ended with her telling me about this art junkie she talks to and his murder fetish which she liked sending me screenshots of their conversation. And at it was so fucking convenient that the very last photo i uploaded to my phone was Bianca's sliced throat. She was fucking horrified or something. Because yeah water is wet and foids larp about their murder fetish and edginess. She went on to tell me about how she had connections and the police and shit and i told her that i really dont give a fuck because i did nothing incriminating and even if i did she can fuck off i dont really give a fuck. Then because i was high and emotional i told her about all the mental problems she caused me (and of course she ignored that) and that if i wanted to hurt her i wouldve done it long ago. I also told her that if she ever sees me irl that she shouldnt make eye contact with me at all fucking costs. She ended the conversation by saying that she will never believe anyone again and that she is scarred for life (which is probably another larp) and that i ruined her future and mental. I simply replied by "first time"? And deleted all of my 0 follower IGs and Facebooks which i used to text her to delete anything bad i mightve said/so i would never get the urge to text her again.
Yes i know this sounds like fucking larp. But it took me 2 hours to fucking type and recall, i know this might get me banned but this experience was just too blackpilling to be left unmentioned. There is also the chance that no one might read this cause this is the sewers but honestly who fucking cares tbh. Felt good to let that out. Also excuse any typos you faggots.
Also i dont talk to that faggot friend anymore after my enlightenment. Blackpill did set me free.