Every single friend group that I've been in ever bullied me and targeted my insecurities. They kept me around as their punching bag and while I was aware of how they treat me I still felt obligated to jestermaxx for them and take the pain just because I was afraid of having no one to speak with me. It is important to notice that all of these "friends" were usually from my own class in middle/high school. At one point I had enough with their derogatory behavior towards me so I decided not to talk to them and I wanted to be left alone but they would come up to me and ask me whether I was sick and what's happening with me. And no they did not asked me that because they cared for me not at all they just wanted me to come up to them so that they can start bullying me again. They were aware of hurting my feelings but that made them even more fulfilled and filled with joy. Ain't nothing like bullying a man already beaten up from life who's barely going through the day and thinks about suicide all the time. My last friendship ended a similar way. That one friend of mine would target my insecurities all the time especially in front of normies so I decided that enough was enough and stopped any contact with him. I've been friendless for awhile now and I prefer it over having a bunch of backstabbing cunts who thrive on my failure and insecurities. I don't know what it means to have a real friend who would do anything for you I don't know what human decency means. Every person I've spoken to in my life disrespected me.
