Venting I hate that I was born black and wish that I was born white.

[Bronzehawkattack]

I’m in a depressed state right now, so here’s a little vent post where i’ll let out my real feelings.

I feel so disgusted with the fact that I think this way but I can’t help it. I hate being black and I want to be white, there’s no doubt about it, no amount of preaching about racial pride to others will help me deny that fact, i’m just a giant hypocrite with nothing to be proud of.

I used to preach so hard about being proud of your race but at any moment if you had offered me surgery that would magically give me blue eyes or lighten my skin color or reshape my nose -- just anything that would make me look even a bit more aryan -- I would have taken it in a heartbeat. I know the truth. Just having those features would make people look at you a lot different. The halo effect is real and it applies to racial features too. I’m a lesser class of person because of the color of my skin, and I understand that all too well, it’s just the truth.

This fact particularly hits me hard because I don’t embody much of the stereotypes of a black male. I’m not into thug culture, and i’m not criminal outside of my mad rantings here caused by pent up frustration and anger, but those negative things are associated with me nonetheless. Worse than that I don’t even embody the positive stereotypes of a black male; i’m not tall, i’m not overly masculine and don’t carry the kind of swagger men of my race are associated with. People of other races already view me as lesser than them for being black and people of my own race view me as weak for acting “too white”.

Maybe it would be better if I were white then. Maybe then I would finally be accepted by people. I fantasize about it constantly, i’d be able to make friends and join social circles with anyone of any race if I were white and I wouldn’t have to live up to any expectation in particular. None of these stereotypes would have to follow me around and haunt me. I don’t belong in this black skin, it’s not comfortable, it’s not meant for me. I reap all of the negatives of being black and none of the positive, it’s hell. No one can understand this pain, not even other ethnicels apparently. It’s the suffering that comes with being a perpetual outsider that won’t belong in any social circle, who will always be treated differently.

The only chance I have to be accepted as my current race is to play up my stereotypes. The only way i’ll ever be able to ascend and get a girlfriend is if I start adhering to what society expects me to be like because that’s the only way someone will accept me, that’s the only way I can find a match. "Just thug maxx bro!", right? Being myself while black is bad news because my personality isn’t one that is black. I’m not meant to be the way I am and so i’m punished for it.

It’s always been this way too. I've always wanted to be that white superhero or star from the movies and videogames, anytime games allowed custom characters I defaulted to one that looked white. Even in my fantasies I was white ffs. I was race pilled long before I was ever black pilled. I've never wanted to be black. Who would be? Even other ethnics would never want to be black, even the coping JBBC posters know better, they know in their heart of hearts they'd rather be subhuman and white than subhuman and black.

I’m so tired right now and none of my copes are working lately. Video games no longer fill me with happiness, TV anime and films just remind me of my desire to be white and a beloved hero, gymcelling and boxing just make me feel like a compensating piece of shit, and my sex drive seems to be fading so even masturbating just feels like a ton of work that makes me crave real intimacy.

I think i’m gonna enter full rot mode. I've got about three hours until work starts but I feel too depressed and unmotivated to even get up and get ready. I’m not going in today, i’m not gonna call out either, i’m just gonna let myself passively be fired because I don’t care anymore. I’ll just rot until I can’t afford to rot anymore and am forced to grow a pair of balls and finally fucking rope. It’ll be easier on me this way. This way I don’t have to go outside and be exposed to normal, good looking people. This way I don’t have to be so ashamed of showing my ugly mug to the world.

Maybe if there’s a god in this world i’ll wake up tomorrow with white skin, just fuck my shit up Michael Jackson style. I’ll still be ugly, but at least i’ll be ugly and white.

 

[masterwizard]

will someone hurry up and invent realistic companion sex bots already

Have you tried BBC fetish coping? Reading about white women that get tattoos that mark them as only sleeping with black men etc?

 

[IronMike]

Even without having the urban subculture, white people still see you as cool, unless you act like Urkel

 

[UnfortunatelyINCEL98]

too many self hating negros tbh / wagecuck/ Skin Lightening surgery your skin you wanna be white so bad..

 

[BlackpilledAF]

Try thug game.

Treat it as a LARP, and eventually you'll get into character.

 

[SlappyDippySlim]

whenever i hit the underside of the barrel like you did i have to remind myself that my mood can always get a little better if i just wait the shitty feeling out. the key is to do something to keep your mind distracted until you can look back on it and reframe how you looked and felt about it as just you going through a hard time that passed and now you feel better. Mental distraction and reframing.

 

[Richard spencer]

The cooning on this site is crazy.

 

[SupremeCel]

Visit raceplay subreddits for some lifefuel bro
Also call in sick today, believe me you'd be more fucked than now wirhout income

 

[EthnicelNL]

Goddamn have some self respect and stop acting like a house-nigger.

 

[Bronzehawkattack]

Try thug game.

Treat it as a LARP, and eventually you'll get into character.

I'm not doing that shit. I'm not gonna become a completely different person -- especially a stereotype that I despise just so people will like me more. I've made my choice already i'm just gonna rot and rope, I prefer that more than running thug game.
Thug game is cope anyways, people will see through you. If thug game worked then no one here would be incel because literally anyone can run thug game regardless of race or creed, it's just blackcels that are told to run it because it's our ONLY way out.

Even without having the urban subculture, white people still see you as cool, unless you act like Urkel

Doesn't make you any more successful in relationships, people just try to use you as a token black friend at best. Most outright avoid you though, at least in my experience, but maybe it's just because i'm ugly and non-NT.

The cooning on this site is crazy.

Goddamn have some self respect and stop acting like a house-nigger.

Suck my dick.

 

[EthnicelNL]

I'm not doing that shit. I'm not gonna become a completely different person -- especially a stereotype that I despise just so people will like me more. I've made my choice already i'm just gonna rot and rope, I prefer that more than running thug game.
Thug game is cope anyways, people will see through you. If thug game worked then no one here would be incel because literally anyone can run thug game regardless of race or creed, it's just blackcels that are told to run it because it's our ONLY way out.


Doesn't make you any more successful in relationships, people just try to use you as a token black friend at best. Most outright avoid you though, at least in my experience, but maybe it's just because i'm ugly and non-NT.



Suck my dick.

You should suck white micropeen..maybe youll become micheal jackson

 

[PM_ME_STRIPPERS]

tldr

theres no difference between being a white incel and a black incel or a currycel, you will still be treated like shit regardless of your race if you have an ugly face.

 

[deadman123]

bro watch pornhub or any other porn website and put in BBC that's all you gotta do to feel happy BRO

 

[13k]

fuck so many feels in this thread

@Tellem-T

 

[ElliotRodgerHere]

>hating yourself for something you have absolutely no control over

But why though

 

[NekoStance]

 

[NeverSubmit]

Blacks are despised and loathed worldwide even blacks who claim to love being black actually hate being black they are coping hard

 

[Darthmat]

Yeah if I could have at least unlocked race customization I would have chosen to be white too op. Least everybody won't assume I'm a thug or criminal at first sight and I could get decent jobs.

 

[13k]

I used to preach so hard about being proud of your race but at any moment if you had offered me surgery that would magically give me blue eyes or lighten my skin color or reshape my nose -- just anything that would make me look even a bit more aryan -- I would have taken it in a heartbeat. I know the truth. .

Actually this thread coming from you kinda surprised me. This is more of a tellem-t or princeofcope kinda thread.

I remember discussions we had on discord. You were so adamant that whites weren't inherently superior to us and how blacks are more attractive than whites. It was a sad read but you finally faced the reality.

 

[Zaetheus]

The cooning on this site is crazy.

I agree.
Never go full coon.... You’re putting white peoples on pedestals.If whites were so perfect why are some here? You self hatred is irritating

 

[_incelinside]

I acknowledge the advantages of being white but given the choice of changing my race or ascending in looks I would pick the latter 100 percent of the time without hesitation. Looks are the lowest common denominator in how you get treated in society, plenty of white people post here after all. I'm neither proud nor ashamed of my race

 

[satoshisacuck]

Blacks are despised and loathed worldwide even blacks who claim to love being black actually hate being black they are coping hard

Brutal.

 

[Spidey]

just lol at going from deathnik to cooncel

 

[Bronzehawkattack]

Actually this thread coming from you kinda surprised me. This is more of a tellem-t or princeofcope kinda thread.

I remember discussions we had on discord. You were so adamant that whites weren't inherently superior to us and how blacks are more attractive than whites. It was a sad read but you finally faced the reality.

I don't even think whites are superior, all the dumb stormfrontcels I constantly expose the stupidity of ensure i'll never think that, and I dont think becoming white would automatically make me smarter... I do think how people treat me would drastically change. It just feels like I was born the wrong race for the kind of person I am.

 

[VinnyVan]

I don't even think whites are superior, all the dumb stormfrontcels I constantly expose the stupidity of ensure i'll never think that, and I dont think becoming white would automatically make me smarter... I do think how people treat me would drastically change. It just feels like I was born the wrong race for the kind of person I am.

So the average Sub Saharan African is equal to white European in intelligence yet Africa, a continent rich with resources and warm climate never produced prosperous black civilization which could match the European one.
While the rest of the world had guns, canons, advanced military strategies and ships the Negroids had the "bull" tactic and short spears.

Literally spear chuckers which were being mowed down during 19th century because they were 1000 years behind everyone else. I can't phantom how one can look at the history and current state of black people and claims that they are equal to Arabs Whites or Asians. They are the most inferior race

 

[kappo0]

I don't even think whites are superior, all the dumb stormfrontcels I constantly expose the stupidity of ensure i'll never think that, and I dont think becoming white would automatically make me smarter... I do think how people treat me would drastically change. It just feels like I was born the wrong race for the kind of person I am.

Just be transracial

So the average Sub Saharan African is equal to white European in intelligence yet Africa, a continent rich with resources and warm climate never produced prosperous black civilization which could match the European one.
While the rest of the world had guns, canons, advanced military strategies and ships the Negroids had the "bull" tactic and short spears.

Literally spear chuckers which were being mowed down during 19th century because they were 1000 years behind everyone else. I can't phantom how one can look at the history and current state of black people and claims that they are equal to Arabs Whites or Asians. They are the most inferior race

Dude just give him a brake

 

[Pasteleiro]

You can aim at being carefree, easy-going, NT or low-ini as the stereotypical black man instead of trying to be a thug.

 

[big nose bug eyes]

>hating yourself for something you have absolutely no control over

But why though

Cause the rest of the world hates him for it too? Hard to have confidence when you're literally the most hated race on the planet, he has no control over the stereotypes imposed on him nor his inability to live up to them.

 

[ElliotRodgerHere]

Cause the rest of the world hates him for it too?

Probably not the people who are the same race as him.

Hard to have confidence when you're literally the most hated race on the planet, he has no control over the stereotypes imposed on him nor his inability to live up to them.

It seems like there's an easy solution to all of these problems: moving back to his country of origin. If things were as bad as you say it is that is what I would do.

 

[Deleted member 1039]

Blacks are despised and loathed worldwide even blacks who claim to love being black actually hate being black they are coping hard

I dont love being black nor do I hate it. I dont give a shit what race I am I just want to be GOODLOOKING. I couldnt care less if I was black, asian,indian, white, whatever, I just want to be GOODLOOKING. The only race I wouldnt want to be even if goodlooking is an Aboriginal because they have extremely low IQ's.

 

[Deleted member 2686]

I dont love being black nor do I hate it. I dont give a shit what race I am I just want to be GOODLOOKING. I couldnt care less if I was black, asian,indian, white, whatever, I just want to be GOODLOOKING. The only race I wouldnt want to be even if goodlooking is an Aboriginal because they have extremely low IQ's.

and curries because gl curries in the west are normie tier according to roasties

 

[ThotGenocide]

There are plenty of white people who believe the exact same foolish shit about the grass being greener OP. "if only I were black people would fear me more, I'd be able to fuck PAWGs and curious stacies all I want!"
Changing your race wouldn't fix face, height, the "aura" of an incel that people can sniff out a mile away. You should instead embrace your blackness and use it as fuel for roastiehate.

 

[Bronzehawkattack]

There are plenty of white people who believe the exact same foolish shit about the grass being greener OP. "if only I were black people would fear me more, I'd be able to fuck PAWGs and curious stacies all I want!"
Changing your race wouldn't fix face, height, the "aura" of an incel that people can sniff out a mile away. You should instead embrace your blackness and use it as fuel for roastiehate.

Yeah, some white people think that, those white people are believing in a myth not backed up by anything whereas it is factually just better to be white in terms of societies and women's acceptance of you. The million race pills should have told you that.
This extends beyond just dating too. My life would be a thousand times better if I were white, even if I were ugly and white people would treat me better than ugly and black.

 

[Weirdcel]

I used to preach so hard about being proud of your race but at any moment if you had offered me surgery that would magically give me blue eyes or lighten my skin color or reshape my nose -- just anything that would make me look even a bit more aryan

For all the hooplah you hear about ethnik pride, I think most ethniks would do the same.

 

[SuperPerfectCel]

Being a nerd while non-white/asian is death.

 

[Bronzehawkattack]

Being a nerd while non-white/asian is death.

Facts. I would still rather be nerdy while Middle Eastern or Indian because you're not expected to be the opposite of that.

 

[BlackOpsIIcel]

Facts. I would still rather be nerdy while Middle Eastern or Indian because you're not expected to be the opposite of that.

See if Blackwolf the dragonmaster takes any desciples.

 

[Bronzehawkattack]

See if Blackwolf the dragonmaster takes any desciples.

What?

 

[Givingup20]

tldr

theres no difference between being a white incel and a black incel or a currycel, you will still be treated like shit regardless of your race if you have an ugly face.

 

[BlackOpsIIcel]

What?

You don't know of Blackwolf? What the hell.

 

[The End]

I have to say, as a white man, you really did brighten my day when I read this. Even though my life really sucks, knowing other people envy me puts a smile on my face. What a lucky guy I am. Being white is almost completely upside.

Maybe you, Bronzehawkattack, can find something you have that others wish they had. For instance: you're not in prison, (if) you have an average or above average penis, you're young, you're healthy. So, go out running in a speed-o.

Your personality is completely entwined with envy and you're depressed (like all of us).

Maybe you can change your race? Michael Jackson almost did it. And then there was that white woman who became a proud african american. Some people feel they are the wrong gender so use plastic surgery, so why not do the same with race?

 

[Kointo1]

I have to say, as a white man, you really did brighten my day when I read this. Even though my life really sucks, knowing other people envy me puts a smile on my face. What a lucky guy I am. Being white is almost completely upside.

Maybe you, Bronzehawkattack, can find something you have that others wish they had. For instance: you're not in prison, (if) you have an average or above average penis, you're young, you're healthy. So, go out running in a speed-o.

Your personality is completely entwined with envy and you're depressed (like all of us).

Maybe you can change your race? Michael Jackson almost did it. And then there was that white woman who became a proud african american. Some people feel they are the wrong gender so use plastic surgery, so why not do the same with race?

Kek

 

[Iamdevj]

a lot of white women enjou black guy , dont feel depressed , every body have his advantage , you have to do with em .

 

[Kointo1]

Why are people proud of their race anyway, no matter which one? It's just having pride for something you had no say in and didn't work for.

 

[Bronzehawkattack]

Maybe you, Bronzehawkattack, can find something you have that others wish they had. For instance: you're not in prison, (if) you have an average or above average penis, you're young, you're healthy. So, go out running in a speed-o.

Unless you're a 4'9" bald, black, old, subhuman, dickletcel you're always going to have one trait that's enviable to someone.

Maybe you can change your race? Michael Jackson almost did it. And then there was that white woman who became a proud african american. Some people feel they are the wrong gender so use plastic surgery, so why not do the same with race?

I had actually started researching and saving up to be able to afford that eye color changing surgery, and also planned to get rhinoplasty surgery at some point since my nose is probably my worst facial feature, but I don't even have the motivation for that anymore.

 

[ElliotRodgerHere]

Why are people proud of their race anyway, no matter which one? It's just having pride for something you had no say in and didn't work for.

Because we're not just individual atoms floating through the universe with no relation to anyone else. We are an extension of a people that came before us and people that will come after us.

 

[Deleted member 2119]

You have to accept it. Just look at the fact that being white doesn't necessarily improve your life

 

[Kointo1]

Because we're not just individual atoms floating through the universe with no relation to anyone else. We are an extension of a people that came before us and people that will come after us.

We're not extensions of people because we're related to them. Sharing DNA with people in the past doesn't mean you should be proud of those people. You're not those people. It's kind of like blind nationalism. I don't understand the purpose of that either besides it being a political tool.

 

[PrinceOfCope]

Incel Tom's Cabin

 

[VST]

I hate that I was born.