zekr
AMOR FATI
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I know exactly what this sounds like..."look at this weakling snowflake zoomer", but it's true...I legitimately have PTSD from high school and I can finally admit it. No, I am not still in high school nor am I a teenager. In fact, my graduation was almost five years ago. But those 4 years still haunt me every time I think of them. I can't even be in the same area as my old high school without it "triggering me" despite still living in that very same neighborhood. I probably only passed by the old school three times in the past 5 years and none of them were by choice, just being in a car while someone took a route past it and that was all I was able to think about for the rest of the day. I still have severe nightmares about being back there and any time I am even reminded of the school, I go into a long trance just replaying memories until my mind just shuts down. The isolation, shitty teachers, severe academic stress, demeaning classmates...all of it was literal hell and I'd rather be executed (not hyperbole) than have to do that ever again...It pains me to live in the same neighborhood as this old school and my goal is to move as far away as possible in the next couple of years. Those were supposed to be the "best years of your life" and I was completely robbed of that. Not to mention being a KHHV the entire time on top of that...Life is truly an inescapable hell-scape.
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