Story I wasn't allowed to think

[FinnCel]

When I was around 15, I tried making friends. Others told me not to put my nose into other people's business.

Fair enough, I thought. I started focusing on myself. Then others told me that I shouldn't always think about myself.

I became like a camera with barely any thoughts or emotions. After that, school shootings rumors about me started to appear. I have written about that shit before...

Recently I've gotten a lot of bad memories. Quitting alcohol is harder than I thought

 

[iblamemyself]

They were always with you. You just drowned them with alcohol so that you don't need to think about them for the moment.

 

[Joelossus]

C'mon have a drink with me, it won't hurt you.

 

[DoctorBlythe]

I'm sorry bro I get you, normies are always angry with people different from them, no matter what they do. Trying to please them is pointless.

 

[seija]

This is what happens when you try to interact with normalfags, I learned this experience firsthand when I first tried making friends back in the 9th Grade when I was a new kid.

 

[littlemanhikicel]

That hurts to hear man, I have my memories too. An empty camera yeah that sounds familiar to me.

 

[doomed 7]

we're here with you brother. cheers. can relate much to what happened to you btw.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

 

[FlamingCel]

Im sorry boyo

 

[ThisLifeKillsMe]

 

[x86_64]

I hope you will snap out of alcoholism and finally find peace of heart in your day-to-day life after everything you've been through. stay strong brother

 

[Neggr]

The first mistake was to even try to communicate with those heartless half human half demon beings.

 

[Remyx]

Wish I shot up my school like everyone thought I would.

I need some weed

 

[Over4Mexicels]

You should have made those school shooting rumours became true

 

[Dionysus]

all ugly males look like shooters

 

[Lux]

The first mistake was to even try to communicate

 

[Emba]

It gets easier after a few months.
But you'll always want it.

 

[FinnCel]

It gets easier after a few months.
But you'll always want it.

Alcohol?
I took antabus but all I can think of is getting a drink.

 

[Vermilioncore]

Gulp liquor forever

 

[reeve23]

I would never understand alcoholics when I was young, but now I just realize life is so shit that most men just wait till nature does its duty and numb the pain. No different to vidya, porn of nowadays

 

[Emba]

Alcohol?
I took antabus but all I can think of is getting a drink.

It's because drinking is easy.
The pill route is a tough road.
What helped me quit was thinking about mistakes I made while drunk and how they effected me. Plus the hangovers were really bad. By associating it with "bad feelings" - instead of good /fun times - it was easier to avoid.

Your body will continue to crave the stuff even many years after you've quit. AA - alcoholics anonymous - might help. Plus you MIGHT be able to make some irl friends. (Just beware because some ex-drunks are criminal scum!)

You'll need to replace the booze cope with something else. Might I suggest permaculture design? It's complex enough to take centuries to fully understand. Plus eventually you might get paid for knowing it... It's in demand.

 

[Deleted member 17997]

You should have made those school shooting rumours became true

 

[needsolution]

They were always with you. You just drowned them with alcohol so that you don't need to think about them for the moment.