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Incel_Because_Short
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Woke up feeling very groggy today, so I stayed in a hot shower for 15 minutes. Still felt tired to I went for a little walk outside for a while. Came back feeling even worse. I felt empty, as if I'm in a cold lifeless body, and my heart is being yanked from my chest. I went for another hot shower, this time for 30 minutes, trying to feel warmth again.
Then I went to the computer and looked at the screen. Outside of blackpill forums I don't use the computer how I used it anymore. Most of the time I spent on the computer the last few days was just looking at my Steam library, nothing more.
Still felt bad, so I went outside again and tried to see if I can smoke some weed to feel better. I recalled my first experience with an escort, how even though I paid for her services that was perhaps the first time I felt like a human being. I started to tear up. I've never been this sad in ages. I need a way out of this nightmare.
I'm getting closer to finding a permanent solution.
Then I went to the computer and looked at the screen. Outside of blackpill forums I don't use the computer how I used it anymore. Most of the time I spent on the computer the last few days was just looking at my Steam library, nothing more.
Still felt bad, so I went outside again and tried to see if I can smoke some weed to feel better. I recalled my first experience with an escort, how even though I paid for her services that was perhaps the first time I felt like a human being. I started to tear up. I've never been this sad in ages. I need a way out of this nightmare.
I'm getting closer to finding a permanent solution.