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Lurkin-nomad
Greycel
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- Joined
- Oct 15, 2023
- Posts
- 12
It’s the weekend and I have no one to talk to. Never experienced any true love or even have people I can call my friends.
I am back to my smoking habit, just trying to chase that dopamine. I smoke one pack a day even though I hate it. Watching movies, games and jerking off doesn’t even feel good anymore. Nothing can numb the pain anymore. I see guys with much worse character just pulling girls left and right. While I suffer alone. No one cares about your “personality” and the nice things you do.
I have been trying to tough it out and focusing on myself but the loneliness just gets to you. Lately I have even broke down crying when I am alone. Everyone feels like an enemy out to get you. Everyone preys on your weaknesses if you’re a guy. To top it off, I was going to ask out this one girl who I thought was different , who just ran off with someone who is just using her to bust a nut.
It’s pain after pain. It’s truly over.
I am back to my smoking habit, just trying to chase that dopamine. I smoke one pack a day even though I hate it. Watching movies, games and jerking off doesn’t even feel good anymore. Nothing can numb the pain anymore. I see guys with much worse character just pulling girls left and right. While I suffer alone. No one cares about your “personality” and the nice things you do.
I have been trying to tough it out and focusing on myself but the loneliness just gets to you. Lately I have even broke down crying when I am alone. Everyone feels like an enemy out to get you. Everyone preys on your weaknesses if you’re a guy. To top it off, I was going to ask out this one girl who I thought was different , who just ran off with someone who is just using her to bust a nut.
It’s pain after pain. It’s truly over.