Yeah. I really don't want to think about it to much mate. I came very close to roping after that. It brings a tear to my eye just thinking about how horrendously depressed that video made me. It's good to be back mate and to once again serve along side a fellow StPinochetcel. Seeing some of the old crew brings warm feelings to my reptilian heart.
You know given the state i was in i couldn't honestly judge what was the problem whether i was fucked up due to years of sleep deprivation, depression and alcohol abuse or it was the drugs. Before that point i was walking around kind of like a zombie and i would often feel like collapsing. I certainly don't plan on ever taking them again. They are fucked up. Coming off them must be like what a bad trip feels like. I have never been a drugcel. I stick to alcohol but i know a lot of guys on here do weed, LSD, shrooms. I wonder what they think of them.
I know some people who have taken them for years or claim they have helped but if what i experienced is help then either the alternative is even more fucked up or those people had "issues" to begin with.
I'm on furlough mate. The entire automotive industry is out until May in all likelihood. In theory we could go back to work in a limited capacity as our works is no more crowded with just production on than the average supermarket but there is no one to buy any fucking cars until this clears up. All the dealerships are shut. No one is driving anywhere. Things really are beyond fucked mate.
Thanks for the welcome. You know mate my thinking on women has evolved. While they are loathsome is hating them necessarily logical? I mean they're a force of nature. It's like hating the sea for being salty, rain for being wet or the sun for putting out UV rays.
