NeetSupremacist
Incel Revolutionary
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- Joined
- Sep 5, 2018
- Posts
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I tried to improve my life, my way of thinking and even trying to forget about inceldom. The day I requested the temp ban I was depressed and yet I'm even more depressed than the day I requested my ban, maybe communicating on the forum has helped me in declining the depression.
I missed communication, I'm alone and in my room 24/7 and I'm crying because I don't know what to do with my life. Everything is black, there is no purpose anymore and I'm not interested in becoming a NPC slave for the society and the world I hate to so much. The hate is very big, I hate everything but foremost I hate myself. I'm a failure and I can't describe in words how big of a failure I am. I've never achieved a thing in life, I have no talents and I can't be to any service in life to society even if I wanted to. When I think deeply about the purpose of my life, I think that my original purpose of this life was to serve as cannon-fodder, but the context of being used as cannon-fodder doesn't exist anymore. I'm not gonna waste my life for globalist cucks.
Even my copes are not working anymore, I love anime but everyday anime is not doing it anymore. I feel I need to do something better and bigger with my life, I can't find satisfaction in this miserable incel-life where I sit 24/7 behind a computer desk in my room. What the fuck?! Being an ugly manlet is really depressing, I'm already aging (25+) and could start balding at anytime now. There is nothing left for me... Suicide? I'm to scared to do that, I'm to scared for the afterlife...
And if it didn't made me more miserable than before, I come across a nephew of mine who I haven't seen for years... I'm 8 years older than him and was born earlier on this planet, yet his life is successful because he's tall.... I asked him if he didn't want to move back to North Africa (we're both 3rth gen immigrants in Europe) and he said: "No of course not, I'm enjoying my life here in the west." It was there that I knew that my life was fucked, he's an ethnic guy but he's enjoying life in western Europe... It's because he has girlfriends, social circle and female attention. I never had that, yet I'm older and smarter than him. If he was a manlet like me he would not enjoy his life and would move back to Africa (that's what I'm gonna do).
I fucking hate my life, and I hate people.
I'm gonna become very selfish, I will learn to only care about myself and I hope I'll become a cold person. This world and it's people don't deserve my kindness...
I missed communication, I'm alone and in my room 24/7 and I'm crying because I don't know what to do with my life. Everything is black, there is no purpose anymore and I'm not interested in becoming a NPC slave for the society and the world I hate to so much. The hate is very big, I hate everything but foremost I hate myself. I'm a failure and I can't describe in words how big of a failure I am. I've never achieved a thing in life, I have no talents and I can't be to any service in life to society even if I wanted to. When I think deeply about the purpose of my life, I think that my original purpose of this life was to serve as cannon-fodder, but the context of being used as cannon-fodder doesn't exist anymore. I'm not gonna waste my life for globalist cucks.
Even my copes are not working anymore, I love anime but everyday anime is not doing it anymore. I feel I need to do something better and bigger with my life, I can't find satisfaction in this miserable incel-life where I sit 24/7 behind a computer desk in my room. What the fuck?! Being an ugly manlet is really depressing, I'm already aging (25+) and could start balding at anytime now. There is nothing left for me... Suicide? I'm to scared to do that, I'm to scared for the afterlife...
And if it didn't made me more miserable than before, I come across a nephew of mine who I haven't seen for years... I'm 8 years older than him and was born earlier on this planet, yet his life is successful because he's tall.... I asked him if he didn't want to move back to North Africa (we're both 3rth gen immigrants in Europe) and he said: "No of course not, I'm enjoying my life here in the west." It was there that I knew that my life was fucked, he's an ethnic guy but he's enjoying life in western Europe... It's because he has girlfriends, social circle and female attention. I never had that, yet I'm older and smarter than him. If he was a manlet like me he would not enjoy his life and would move back to Africa (that's what I'm gonna do).
I fucking hate my life, and I hate people.
I'm gonna become very selfish, I will learn to only care about myself and I hope I'll become a cold person. This world and it's people don't deserve my kindness...