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Edmund_Kemper
Disregard my larping efforts. I can’t change it.
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i have never been this insecure in my life. my life has never been this dire. i'm 24 and i'm still a kissless relationshipless dateless virgin. i have no job experience, and even after i finish uni in two years i won't get hired by employers for not having much job experience. i struggle to meet people no matter how much i put myself out there. when i meet guys who i thought i could be friends with, i get left on delivered or eventually ghosed or only make brief acquintances at best. i hardly ever spoke to a girl since high school ended. i never really many many friends after high school. i dealt with severe OCD for 4.5 years after high school. my hair's thinning, my real voice is fucked up and i have to feign a deeper voice when talking (and looked up tutorials for it on youtube). i always have unrealistic pipe dreams about how i'll make friends or meet people or do anything with my life, but those pipe dreams never happen at all. i take a couple hours to get dressed and shave and whatnot, and i have to put on rogaine foam and fix my appearance which takes lots of work. i fail to be considered an adequate man by society because i don't have job experience, am not an alpha male, am a virgin, never got a girlfriend, and don't have a great social life.
my life is just getting worse and worse as time goes by.
my life is just getting worse and worse as time goes by.