I am pregnant atm with his child.
Also probably not cheating or masturbating too much. He’s a very attractive guy and gets hit on a lot. Girls have even tried to hit on him in front of me but he just seems really disinterested/annoyed in that kind of behavior. I’ve even had friends tell me that when they see him out he never so much as looks at another female when they talk to him. We don’t lock our phones and have open conversations about when/if we masterbate and what we watch. I can also tell by the size of his load how recent it’s been.
I just had an incredible urge to check his phone while he was sleeping. Especially after some comments from people here suggests cheating was a possibility. I honestly didn’t expect to find anything except maybe some raunchy porn that he may have forgotten to use incognito mode on. Fucking hell ...
What I found was horrible. So many texts, so many messages from other girls. Ex girlfriends, girls he’s told me we’re friends, girls he’s never even mentioned, friends sisters, even an old high school friend of mine that we ran into one time that I told him was a major skank. Talking about meeting in hotels and at the gym and at their place and at his. Some as recently as earlier that day right before I came over. He told me he went to lunch with his dad before and I guess his ex girlfriend worked at the place he went. He talked about how he left her a tip in singles for the strip tease next time and told her to get her fine ass ready to be plowed. She talked about how painful anal was with him but that she was always ready for it when he was. Again-something that was very taboo for him and I to do. He was doing with his fucking ex girlfriend. I literally threw the phone away from me and just walked out.
I feel like I’m losing my mind because my head just won’t allow me to process it right now. I feel like I’m still dreaming. I haven’t slept at all. I don’t really have anyone to talk to. I’ve just been sitting in my bed, staring at the wall. I never would have fucking thought this could happen to me again. I’m literally going to be giving birth to his son in less than a month. I don’t know what the fuck I am going to do other than tell my OB to get me tested for STDs ASAP. I’m fucking torn apart.
