There was a girl I had a huge crush on in high school. I first saw her when I was in 7th grade. She was one grade above me so she was in 8th grade. I was already attracted to her in middle school and at the time, we didn't really know each other too well, but she said hi to me a few times (she was the first to say hi) and that was it. I didn't see her throughout 8th grade because she entered high school. I then enter 9th grade and she enters 10th grade. On the first day on 9th grade, I saw her and she was talking to a bunch of people I knew. I saw her and all the memories of her from middle school came back. I was like "I remember this girl!". I had a crush on her in 7th grade but I wasn't obsessed with her yet. Then I see her on my first day of high school and I suddenly was so attracted to her that I completely lost my attraction to any other girl in the world. She was a cheerleader and I remember I was thinking about her a lot.
What's crazy is that I remember at the start of 9th grade, when I didn't know where certain classrooms were and where certain places were, they had a 12th grade girl (who was also a cheerleader) help me know where each classroom is because she knew the whole map of the school. She helped walk me to my classes so I could get there on time for a few days. In a few days, I found out that 12th grade girl was my crush's sister! I found it out through social media I believe. I was like "holy shit. they're sisters?!". After a couple days, I knew the whole map of the school and didn't need help going to classes anymore.
Now this 10th grade girl (I was in 9th) who I was into was all I thought about. I knew homecoming was coming in October so I wanted to ask her to homecoming, but I thought about being friends for a while. I was too shy to talk to her, so a female friend (just friends) brought her to me. The next time, a male friend brought her to me. I admit I was a bit awkward around my crush because I was shy. I remember I found out she had a twitter and so I created a twitter. As a person with high-functioning autism, I didn't realize how stalker-ish I was. One day, I asked her if she could follow me and she said she would, but she didn't. A few weeks later, after asking her a few more times, she finally did.
I would try talking to her sometimes but looking back, I think she already knew I liked her. We'd see each other in the hallway and I'd talk to her. I didn't end up going to homecoming with her but I should've known that wouldn't happen. A while later, on the first day of November, I noticed she blocked me on Twitter. I didn't know about it until I got home from school. I was having fun at school without knowing about Twitter. I go to Twitter at home, and I see she blocked me. I started crying. The next day, a school staff member who knew me (and knew her) had a meeting with my mom and I and the staff member told me that the girl I liked felt I was following her and everywhere she looked in the hallway it was me and felt uncomfortable. So the girl I had a crush on (I'll just refer to her as "Stacy" even though that isn't her name) said she doesn't want me to be near her anymore and wants me to stay away. Stacy (again this isn't her actual name) would want to discuss it with me in a meeting because she was too uncomfortable. I became extremely depressed about it. For 2 months I went through depression because of it. I became completely antisocial and didn't talk to people much anymore. At home I'd constantly look at her social media every day. I saw her tweets and instagram posts. I'd cry very frequently, often crying every day. Sometimes I cried for 3 hours. Yes I know I sound like a wimp. Whatever. Anyway...
If I saw her say "I love you" or anything like that to another guy, I got more depressed. I remember she also had this huge obsession with Cody Simpson. She was in love with him. Anyways, I remember Stacy knew I was texting about her to a girl she knew. I guess one of Stacy's friends told her about it cause they all knew each other. I remember after 2 months of Stacy avoiding me, winter break ended. I came back from school and January just began. At lunch, I was upset and pissed off as hell. I think I even pushed down some trash can in the hallway (a lot of students ate in the halls, especially 9th/10th graders). People in the hall found out I was upset because of Stacy. They all asked Stacy what was going on and to talk to me but she wouldn't because I was too angry. Stacy then found out how depressed I was and she didn't know how much pain she caused. She completely regretted telling me to go away and she agreed to have a meeting with me. We talked during a meeting and I told her I didn't mean to make her uncomfortable. She told me she's okay with me talking to her as long as I give her space, and I agreed to it. During the rest of 9th grade and during 10th grade, we'd see each other sometimes and say hi. She and I also finally got along. She did block me on Facebook though when I created one and I sent a friend request (I sent a friend request to everyone because I just began Facebook). My mom says she did it because she worried I'd become obsessed again. Anyways, she and I still got along. In 11th grade, I didn't really ever see her much it seems. I never spoke to her when I was in 11th grade. I don't think I ever saw her in 11th grade. She was a grade above me. She finished 12th grade and went to college and I went to 12th grade when she went to her first year of college.
I haven't seen her in a few years. I don't have a crush on her anymore, but I still have a few feelings left for her even though I'm no longer attracted to her. Once I got into 10th grade or end of the 9th grade, I began to be attracted to other girls again.
I know I sound like a wimp being depressed over some girl but whatever.
