Blackpill (Today too) Many people talk to me like I’m a child or a retard… it reminds me of how I’m seen by others

[TheGrayWolf]

These people are all either strangers (people Working in supermarkets), neighbours (all over 50) or friends of my parents like the situation today.

Typical rainy, grey Sunday. I love the weather but my day was just ruined even more (tbh im always depressed, sad and angry).

A friend of my mom just rang our doorbell to hand over something (over the counter meds) for my mom, who wasn’t here. This was literally 15 minutes ago.

This friend literally always talks to me like I’m a child under 12 years old, or literally some retarded autistic person. Now too. She’s friendly but her tone and what she says, it’s like she’s talking to a slow child. She’s trying to be friendly but it just makes me even more insecure and aware who I am and how I’m seen by Normies. Also, I’m neither retarded and I’m 26 years old. This lady isn’t very smart herself.

I, already insecure, react awkwardly.

 

[Lonelyus]

These people are all either strangers (shopping), neighbours (all over 50) or friends of my parents like the situation today.

A friend of my mom just rang our doorbell to hand over something (over the counter meds) for my mom, who wasn’t here. This was literally 15 minutes ago.

This friend literally always talks to me like I’m a child under 12 years old, or literally some retarded autistic person. Now too. She’s friendly but her tone and what she says, it’s like she’s talking to a slow child. She’s trying to be friendly but it just makes me even more insecure and aware who I am and how I’m seen by Normies. Also, I’m neither retarded and I’m 26 years old. This lady isn’t very smart herself.

I, already insecure, react awkwardly.

Kill her

 

[_meh]

Never was treated like a kid personally, even when I was a teenager I got treated like an adult.

That's just ogre life.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

That's just ogre life.

What’s ogre life ? Damn that makes me even more insecure, I expected some anger towards her, not this

 

[TheGrayWolf]

Kill her

Nah but seriously… it’s very annoying and upsetting bc the implications this has for me… not good

 

[UnwantedVirgin]

This friend literally always talks to me like I’m a child under 12 years old, or literally some retarded autistic person. Now too. She’s friendly but her tone and what she says, it’s like she’s talking to a slow child. She’s trying to be friendly but it just makes me even more insecure and aware who I am and how I’m seen by Normies. Also, I’m neither retarded and I’m 26 years old. This lady isn’t very smart herself.

I hate this so much, like no matter how hard you try to speak like a normal guy and improve yourself they still see you as a child or mentally deficient.

Happened when I signed in for the gym yesterday, the foid remembered my name "It's UnwantedVirgin isn't it? Don't worry darling I'll sign you in don't you worry" but it was said in a way someone would speak to a child or retard. I'm not sure what I've even done to give off those vibes, I thought I was acting like a normie there but obviously something is off.

 

[Blackpill Monk]

Are u autistic and neurodivergence

 

[TheGrayWolf]

Are u autistic and neurodivergence

Both. I also look autistic.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

I hate this so much, like no matter how hard you try to speak like a normal guy and improve yourself they still see you as a child or mentally deficient.

Happened when I signed in for the gym yesterday, the foid remembered my name "It's UnwantedVirgin isn't it? Don't worry darling I'll sign you in don't you worry" but it was said in a way someone would speak to a child or retard. I'm not sure what I've even done to give off those vibes, I thought I was acting like a normie there but obviously something is off.

Exactly and sorry this happened to you too mate.

It’s like… „I’m not a freaking child or a retard! You got that, normie?“ That’s what I want to say

 

[UnwantedVirgin]

Exactly and sorry this happened to you too mate.

It’s like… „I’m not a freaking child or a retard! You got that, normie?“ That’s what I want to say

Yep. It would be interesting to view ourselves from a normie perspective and see what vibes and signals we're giving off without knowing, what body language we're missing etc. Maybe then we could shake off the little lost lamb look.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

Yep. It would be interesting to view ourselves from a normie perspective and see what vibes and signals we're giving off without knowing, what body language we're missing etc. Maybe then we could shake off the little lost lamb look.

Exactly. I behave in an autistic way even if I really try to act normally it seems forced and awkward.

The incident before- we have a dog, he always goes out the door (like 2 feet) to greet people. So when that friend of mum wanted to leave, I joked are you taking him with her, she said no, not getting it was a joke, and after laughed like I’m some idiot. Not a good joke I know but she thought I was being serious bc she probably presumes I can’t tell jokes kek

 

[UnwantedVirgin]

Exactly. I behave in an autistic way even if I really try to act normally it seems forced and awkward.

The incident before- we have a dog, he always goes out the door (like 2 feet) to greet people. So when that friend of mum wanted to leave, I joked are you taking him with her, she said no, not getting it was a joke, and after laughed like I’m some idiot. Not a good joke I know but she thought I was being serious bc she probably presumes I can’t tell jokes kek

Goddamn, that sounds like your Mum has been discussing your autism with her and now she thinks you're a child trapped in a man's body.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

Goddamn, that sounds like your Mum has been discussing your autism with her and now she thinks you're a child trapped in a man's body.

Yup and I also kind of look autistic. They've been friends for longer than 26 years (my age). I was a good looking kid till about age 11, then my disorder kicked in, and ever since I was 13, I look very strange and ugly (overheard "monster" or "ugliest person I've ever seen", "look at this guy" or "how tf does he look like", to which some people react to "I thought that was a woman, looks lesbian" (I actually look very young, plus hormonal imbalance during puberty).

Many, many times. Probably around 2000 times over the last 13 years. Literally.

And yes, my mom did tell her I have social anxiety and I'm shy etc. But the way I talk, my mannerisms, are not autistic – I'm just extremely insecure and unassertive.

 

[UnwantedVirgin]

Yup and I also kind of look autistic. They've been friends for longer than 26 years (my age). I was a good looking kid till about age 11, then my disorder kicked in, and ever since I was 13, I look very strange and ugly (overheard "monster" or "ugliest person I've ever seen", "look at this guy" or "how tf does he look like", to which some people react to "I thought that was a woman, looks lesbian" (I actually look very young, plus hormonal imbalance during puberty).

Many, many times. Probably around 2000 times over the last 13 years. Literally.

And yes, my mom did tell her I have social anxiety and I'm shy etc. But the way I talk, my mannerisms, are not autistic – I'm just extremely insecure and unassertive.

I'm sorry to hear all that bro, life's a piece of shit and so are people. Are you at least able to get disabilitybux as a form compensation?

 

[TheGrayWolf]

I'm sorry to hear all that bro, life's a piece of shit and so are people.

Thank you man, and yes I 200% agree.

Are you at least able to get disabilitybux as a form compensation?

Yeah from my dad, I get alimony (but that's the law anyway) and I never have to pay stuff out of my own pocket. We're not exactly "rich", maybe slightly above middle class, but nowhere near the point I could just work 50% part-time. I don't qualify for disabilitybux, but if I can't find a job once I finish distance-learning uni, social security office will find one for me or pay me enough for basic necessities so I can NEET AND LDAR

 

[UnwantedVirgin]

Thank you man, and yes I 200% agree.


Yeah from my dad, I get alimony (but that's the law anyway) and I never have to pay stuff out of my own pocket. We're not exactly "rich", maybe slightly above middle class, but nowhere near the point I could just work 50% part-time. I don't qualify for disabilitybux, but if I can't find a job once I finish distance-learning uni, social security office will find one for me or pay me enough for basic necessities so I can NEET AND LDAR

Well there's something good I guess, I feel bad for the cels who can't get support with living expenses and have to go out everyday in a world which hates them just to eat.

On an unrelated note have you ever thought about getting an escort? I really want to try it but the whole living with parents still and risks involved, something bad might happen or I'll get an std and have to sneak my way off to the doctors without my Mum knowing since it's so out of character for me to go out for no reason.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

Well there's something good I guess, I feel bad for the cels who can't get support with living expenses and have to go out everyday in a world which hates them just to eat.

Yeah, I still live at home with my mum. And yes I agree.

On an unrelated note have you ever thought about getting an escort? I really want to try it but the whole living with parents still and risks involved, something bad might happen or I'll get an std

I have thought about it yes, and they're even legal here where I live (also in the UK btw, but you probably already know that, so I'm sorry). I will do it in about 2 years, I first wanna train my body (I'm 5'4 and only weigh just under 110lbs, I also have fat belly but thin arms). I would also be willing to travel or let her travel to me, if she's very pretty. Don't know how I can afford that yet though.

This is a pretty good website: https://www.eurogirlsescort.com/#

I want to try too – and I had exactly the same thoughts you're having. Mum and SDS.

However sex-escorts are not what will make me happy personally. I'll never be happy, bc I'll never get a gf. My parents always knew, and they don't care. My mom once conceded that I have to learn to live by myself a few years ago, now she's lying to make me feel better: "of course you can get a gf" and "I want you to have one bc then you're not always in the house."

have to sneak my way off to the doctors without my Mum knowing since it's so out of character for me to go out for no reason.

Exactly, I never did that before. I'm 26 and have never been on a night out. Literally zero times. Another disadvantage I have – non-existent social skills.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

Well there's something good I guess, I feel bad for the cels who can't get support with living expenses and have to go out everyday in a world which hates them just to eat.

On an unrelated note have you ever thought about getting an escort? I really want to try it but the whole living with parents still and risks involved, something bad might happen or I'll get an std and have to sneak my way off to the doctors without my Mum knowing since it's so out of character for me to go out for no reason.

I even had the thought of introducing an escort to my parents "she's my gf" – but that won't work for a number of reasons.

It's a pretty good site. You can enter age, weight, hair length, what services she does, ethnicity etc.

 

[3000showers]

I get this too
I think its because im short
They talk to me like im completely retarded even when they never had any other interaction with me
Only at the phone or by email im treated like an adult

 

[TheGrayWolf]

I get this too
I think its because im short
They talk to me like im completely retarded even when they never had any other interaction with me

Same, but this woman has known me since I was literally a baby. I know that my mom told her I have social anxiety, I'm shy, etc. I also behave in a low-inhib, autistic, extremely insecure way, and talk like it too. My voice is also slightly strange. But I think it's mainly my behaviour. She isn't very smart either, according to my parents. She's probably like 58-60 years old, like my mom.

Only at the phone or by email im treated like an adult

Same. But sometimes when I'm on the phone with strangers (like with my bank), I hear them chuckle, or am I just imagining things?

 

[3000showers]

Same, but this woman has known me since I was literally a baby. I know that my mom told her I have social anxiety, I'm shy, etc. I also behave in a low-inhib, autistic, extremely insecure way, and talk like it too. My voice is also slightly strange. But I think it's mainly my behaviour. She isn't very smart either, according to my parents. She's probably like 58-60 years old, like my mom.


Same. But sometimes when I'm on the phone with strangers (like with my bank), I hear them chuckle, or am I just imagining things?

I think that once people perceive you in a certain way , it can just get worse
They seen you as young unsecure and short = dumb retarded child
Young tall handsome = smart young man

About the phone i think its just paranoia, i had this too until i had to do several calls a day for my job

 

[Pixycel]

Same, I always feel like people treat me like a child too. They always speak to me in a condescending way even when they're being nice.

 

[TheLastandtheFirst]

I hate it when men call me "Buddy", when they are my age, younger, or above.
When you are my age or younger, you can correct them, but not when they are older, because there is plausible deniability that they are doing it from a place of seniority and not from a place of being condescending.

 

[mrlunatic]

These people are all either strangers (people Working in supermarkets), neighbours (all over 50) or friends of my parents like the situation today.

Typical rainy, grey Sunday. I love the weather but my day was just ruined even more (tbh im always depressed, sad and angry).

A friend of my mom just rang our doorbell to hand over something (over the counter meds) for my mom, who wasn’t here. This was literally 15 minutes ago.

This friend literally always talks to me like I’m a child under 12 years old, or literally some retarded autistic person. Now too. She’s friendly but her tone and what she says, it’s like she’s talking to a slow child. She’s trying to be friendly but it just makes me even more insecure and aware who I am and how I’m seen by Normies. Also, I’m neither retarded and I’m 26 years old. This lady isn’t very smart herself.

I, already insecure, react awkwardly.

Are u really skinny or short ? This happens to me too. I think this happens because we don't look as masculine as we should. They don't take us seriously at all.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

Are u really skinny or short ? This happens to me too. I think this happens because we don't look as masculine as we should. They don't take us seriously at all.

Yup. I‘m 1.62m/5‘4“ short and weigh only 50kg/110 LBS. Her own son is 28/29 (?) I think, he’s like 5‘6“… and I can imagine he’s a virgin (my mom told me how he has a gf living in Mexico now, we’re in Europe), though I’m doubtful he’s part of this community.

I also behave in a very low-inhib, unassertive way. When I talk, you notice immediately that I’m very insecure. She tries to ask me question, how’s it going, „writing a test soon?“, and I made a joke.

I don’t have any friends and don’t like talking to people and this lady knows that, from my mum. we have a dog, he always goes out the door (like 2 feet) to greet people and let himself be scratched. So when that friend of mum wanted to leave, I joked „are you taking (my dog) with you“, she said no, she laughed and said „no sadly we can’t“, but it was obvious she thought I was being serious. Not a good joke I know but she thought I was being serious bc she probably presumes I can’t tell jokes - bc of the retard that I am - kek

 

[Savage]

Mogs me

If the rare event occurs where someone speaks to me their tone of voice is one of absolute resentment and disgust jfl. It's consistent reinforcement for the justification of my hatred towards people. When I was 17/18 it was kind of different, there were a few events that occured where a few people approached me on the street and asked "is everything ok?". I probaby looked so dead inside as I spent every night playing vidya and smoking cigarettes. Now that I'm 23 and the age starts to show nobody gives a flying fuck about me lmao

 

[mrlunatic]

Yup. I‘m 1.62m/5‘4“ short and weigh only 50kg/110 LBS.

You've your answer there bozo

 

[TheGrayWolf]

You've your answer there bozo

-sniff-

 

[TheGrayWolf]

I hate it when men call me "Buddy", when they are my age, younger, or above.
When you are my age or younger, you can correct them, but not when they are older, because there is plausible deniability that they are doing it from a place of seniority and not from a place of being condescending.

Yeah, I understand you

 

[Emba]

Kill her

Ok

 

[Thaway]

These people are all either strangers (people Working in supermarkets), neighbours (all over 50) or friends of my parents like the situation today.

Typical rainy, grey Sunday. I love the weather but my day was just ruined even more (tbh im always depressed, sad and angry).

A friend of my mom just rang our doorbell to hand over something (over the counter meds) for my mom, who wasn’t here. This was literally 15 minutes ago.

This friend literally always talks to me like I’m a child under 12 years old, or literally some retarded autistic person. Now too. She’s friendly but her tone and what she says, it’s like she’s talking to a slow child. She’s trying to be friendly but it just makes me even more insecure and aware who I am and how I’m seen by Normies. Also, I’m neither retarded and I’m 26 years old. This lady isn’t very smart herself.

I, already insecure, react awkwardly.

The worst part is that people generally are low IQ and retarded af. That's the truly insulting part. People that have an amoeba IQ and a brain of a teenager think they stand above you, even though you are clearly intellectually and emotionally superior. I encounter the same situations once in a while. I give one word answers and move on, but deep down i want them dead.

It's all because your face is shaped in a way that makes their retard brains categorize you as a minor. Humans are simple af.

 

[copefrancis]

Same people can sniff out my autism no matter how much I try to hide it.

 

[Robb97]

Brutal man I feel you.