bro, I didn't expect this thread to come with sad stories
do you still grieve for him?
I cry almost every other day, he was my life, he was my rock. he taught me that it's okay to show emotions and I truly take that to heart, he could openly cry infront of me and I could cry in front of him without it ever being a sign if weakness. he was the wisest man I knew, and I will never find a better friend than him. he suffered a lot in his life, he was in a carcrash when he was 17 and lost his friend which he had severe survivals guilt over, he was always addicted to opioids after that due to a vertebrae in his neck getting crushed. that injury haunted his for the rest of his life.
he always said that there is no such thing as adults, only big and small children. we were all children once, and we should never lose that spark we once had. he also always said that we should put words onto our feelings, so that we never keep them bottled up.
I truly belive that there's something after death, he was never scared to die even though I was always terrified of losing him.
I know that I will forever grieve him, and it's incredibly hard knowing that i miss him every single second for the rest of my life. it's very rare to have that kind of relationship with your father sadly, I will always feel sad for privelage I had by having such a great father and such a good connection with him.
my last conversation with him was me calling him to talk about the glasses I finally got, but the connection was really bad so i told him that i would call him back once the connection was better, but I forgot to call him and that guilt sticks with me and I will probably never heal. I moved out to the other side of the country about half a year before he passed aswell and I regret that every single day aswell.
it's always heartbreaking whenever I hear others with fathers who weren't as kind and caring as mine was.
I only have 3 pictures of me with my father, and I regret not taking more every single day since.
don't take your family for granted, you might regret it one day man.