This is too dark, I was never bullied, I had normie hobbies before. I always knew the future outcomes of things so I was never embarrassed that way, I was also well spoken but of course shy and timid.
My story is uniquely horrible, but it's the same in the sense of, how most incels just say, "From my teenage years, everything started going backwards" or something along those lines.
It indeed went backwards and because I opened up to them about relationship issues, not sexual but friendships, never open up to anyone about anything that's meaningful or important to you, especially to someone close, always talk about this stuff with outsiders who you won't meet twice.