[Serious] When was the first time you considered suicide?

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I think i did it at 15,watched a cringy movie about some emo guy that ends up killing himself.I was starting to be more aware of my uglyness,even a bitch asked me why i am ugly and my brother isn't :feelsbadman::feelsrope:
 
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15 for me as well OP
 
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14, as in an attempt.
I always have been contemplating. I realized I would be forever alone, from a very young age.
 
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I first considered it seriously when I was 18
 
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i had thought about since i was about 11 though i never gave it serious consideration until i was 18/19
 
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I was likely 16
 
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Probably around fifteen, since Ive saying every year that i'll kill myself but I never do it.
 
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When i was 10 probably but i seriously considered it and planned to do it for the first time at 17 i think
 
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I can't remember exactly, I think 13 or 14, I made my first attempt when I was 16
 
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14 years old.

If you wanna be technical I heard the term in church at a young, young age and I was told if you commit suicide you go to hell but if not for that I would've roped to go to heaven.
 
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Early 20s (i'm a badskincel so I thought i'd grow out of it). I spent the last decade (in 30s now) contemplating and exploring all things suicide everyday. I'm largely at peace with it now, can't explore the thought any deeper than I already have. Whether, I do it or not doesn't really matter to me anymore, if it gets bad enough i'll likely show my self out.
 
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14 years old.

If you wanna be technical I heard the term in church at a young, young age and I was told if you commit suicide you go to hell but if not for that I would've roped to go to heaven.
I stopped caring about religion long ago,just fairy tales and false hopes.
 
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6, try being autistic.
 
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FUCk it is really that bad?
Imagine having no friends at all in class, constantly being sent to the office by your teacher for reasons you don't understand and having verbally and physically abusive parents that destroy your self esteem and cause you pain.
 
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Around 12 or 13...
think about it every day when I look in the mirror now

Imagine having no friends at all in class, constantly being sent to the office by your teacher for reasons you don't understand and having verbally and physically abusive parents that destroy your self esteem and cause you pain.
Autistic Sub4 Curryceldom is legit one of the hardest difficulties known to man. I don't think there has ever been a man in history to beat the game on that difficulty.
 
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Imagine having no friends at all in class, constantly being sent to the office by your teacher for reasons you don't understand and having verbally and physically abusive parents that destroy your self esteem and cause you pain.
Sorry to hear it man,at least i had few friends in class and didn't get in much trouble with teachers but my father fucked me up sometimes too.
 
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10, not even kidding, at 19 I almost did it.
 
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From now on i think it is the only solution.This decade IT'S OVER for me.
You're 18 right? You have time to wagecuck and get facial surgery before it's too late, chances are you don't need more than 40K worth either... I wouldn't recommend suicide for any man unless he was poor, ugly, and over 25...
 
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Autistic Sub4 Curryceldom is legit one of the hardest difficulties known to man. I don't think there has ever been a man in history to beat the game on that difficulty.
My face just got uglier, as a kid I was decent or average looking and I lived around other curries so I wasn't discriminated against for my race, but my autism hurt my chances. I did have people that let me hang around them or those who I spent a lot of time around, but they eventually back stabbed me.
 
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Sorry to hear it man,at least i had few friends in class and didn't get in much trouble with teachers but my father fucked me up sometimes too.
I was always ostracized from the majority, most of the people I interacted with were either autistic outcastes like me or shy and introverted. They all ended up betraying me eventually.
 
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I had it planned for 18
 
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Never.

I said I would suicide to manipulate my parents as a teen though.
 
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I dont remember the age but was in puberty
 
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My face just got uglier, as a kid I was decent or average looking and I lived around other curries so I wasn't discriminated against for my race, but my autism hurt my chances. I did have people that let me hang around them or those who I spent a lot of time around, but they eventually back stabbed me.
They probably ditched you as soon as they reached pussy chasing age because they thought just being seen with you lowered their SMV...
 
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You're 18 right? You have time to wagecuck and get facial surgery before it's too late, chances are you don't need more than 40K worth either... I wouldn't recommend suicide for any man unless he was poor, ugly, and over 25...
Yes i'm 18 but i mean this decade is decisive,only time will tell me to rope or live.
 
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Yes i'm 18 but i mean this decade is decisive,only time will tell me to rope or live.
Start researching every surgery you need. Reach out to some trusted blackpill looks raters on discord and ask them for surgery advice. At 18, you could make it out of inceldom in your mid 20's with surgery... If you reach your mid 20's without surgery, suicide is salvation.
 
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They probably ditched you as soon as they reached pussy chasing age because they thought just being seen with you lowered their SMV...
They were all such huge losers, they never even pursued girls. But similarly to your claim, as soon as my face turned ugly and one of them started height mogging me, they were meaner and ultimately ended up betraying me. However there were other reasons, despite having a decent face and height, I was always ostracized by most people for being autistic. But a few people seemed to like me initially and treated me well, many of them were girls. I also found it easier to talk to people, since they were friendlier.
If you reach your mid 20's without surgery, suicide is salvation
Why not 30 instead?
 
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Start researching every surgery you need. Reach out to some trusted blackpill looks raters on discord and ask them for surgery advice. At 18, you could make it out of inceldom in your mid 20's with surgery... If you reach your mid 20's without surgery, suicide is salvation.
Thanks for the advice.Mind if i send you some pics?
 
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They were all such huge losers, they never even pursued girls. But similarly to your claim, as soon as my face turned ugly and one of them started height mogging me, they were meaner and ultimately ended up betraying me. However there were other reasons, despite having a decent face and height, I was always ostracized by most people for being autistic. But a few people seemed to like me initially and treated me well, many of them were girls. I also found it easier to talk to people, since they were friendlier.

Why not 30 instead?
Yep, your own "friends" backstabbing and treating you like shit all of a sudden. Girls don't start getting really shitty and hateful until they've had a few chads...Usually High School is when all foids turn into hateful bitcches.

I said mid twenties because that's when men start to really think about it a lot so most people who think they will rope at 25 will probably rope at 30 anyway...
Thanks for the advice.Mind if i send you some pics?
I don't mind but what I tell you might be pure [SuicideFuel]...
 
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Yep, your own "friends" backstabbing and treating you like shit all of a sudden. Girls don't start getting really shitty and hateful until they've had a few chads...Usually High School is when all foids turn into hateful bitcches.
We'd had some conflict before, but that guy suddenly started to bully me and take pictures of me which he'd make fun of with someone else and possibly post them on social media, never really found out if he did. Some girls treated me nicely or talked to me, though some of them were bitches from the beginning and seemed to despise me. But after I turned ugly starting from 11th grade, all of them seemed to avoid me and even other guys seemed to despise me.
 
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14. When I was bullied for being ugly
 
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I wanted to become a suicide bomber at 15. :feelshaha:

Jk, but I would say that I was really depressed around 17-18.
 
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We'd had some conflict before, but that guy suddenly started to bully me and take pictures of me which he'd make fun of with someone else and possibly post them on social media, never really found out if he did. Some girls treated me nicely or talked to me, though some of them were bitches from the beginning and seemed to despise me. But after I turned ugly starting from 11th grade, all of them seemed to avoid me and even other guys seemed to despise me.
I hate the thought of being photographed as a subhuman male. I used to love watching normie couples fight and smash each other's flip phones. I would stalk my friend's myspace page to make sure I wasn't accidentally photographed. I even hated phones back then way before tinder because they could take pictures. Despite what people say, it gets worse after high school. People hate you even more for being ugly.
 
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I hate the thought of being photographed as a subhuman male.
Mirrors and photographs are the ultimate form of torture.

I would stalk my friend's myspace page to make sure I wasn't accidentally photographed. I even hated phones back then way before tinder because they could take pictures.
That's rough. Even right now the thought of someone seeing my subhuman pictures online and laughing at how ugly I am causes me great agony, my whole chest twists and my stomach turns into knots, I feel genuinely suicidal. When did you start being mistreated due to your looks?

Despite what people say, it gets worse after high school. People hate you even more for being ugly.
In my experience after high school people won't bully you as much or at all anymore but they will definitely avoid you and be passive aggressive. Interactions become much tougher.
 
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Mirrors and photographs are the ultimate form of torture.


That's rough. Even right now the thought of someone seeing my subhuman pictures online and laughing at how ugly I am causes me great agony, my whole chest twists and my stomach turns into knots, I feel genuinely suicidal. When did you start being mistreated due to your looks?


In my experience after high school people won't bully you as much or at all anymore but they will definitely avoid you and be passive aggressive. Interactions become much tougher.
After the enopthalmos punch... People would start calling me ugly to my face. All of my friends started having sex and doing party drugs, I didn't get invited to parties. I asked them why I didn't get invited to parties and they would literally tell me that I was too ugly and there would be no point to me going... Last time I checked, they all reproduced and have decent lives now... I just rot away in ugliness.
 
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After the enopthalmos punch... People would start calling me ugly to my face. All of my friends started having sex and doing party drugs, I didn't get invited to parties. I asked them why I didn't get invited to parties and they would literally tell me that I was too ugly and there would be no point to me going... Last time I checked, they all reproduced and have decent lives now... I just rot away in ugliness.
Damn that's definitely terrible. When did that punch happen? Before that punch, were you decent looking enough to get a girlfriend? Also, were there any girls who liked you back then?
 
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At fourteen I wanted to kill myself because I got caught watching porn in class and picked on over it for the rest of the year. I was an outcast in general though, being autistic is a living hell.
 
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never because parents ingrained into my mind that I will go to hell. fuck them for that
i do hate living though
 
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