Chilling outside my flat block right now from going for a walk around town.
It was absolutely fucking miserable.
OK, first, there were groups of close knit friend out and about, walking side by side, laughing, smiling and enjoying life.
They're genders varied, sometimes it was only guys, sometimes only girls, sometimes a combo of both.
Meanwhile I'm alone, sad, depressed and lonely.
I walked pass this one restaurant with tables by large glass windows, allowing you to see directly inside.
I saw friends, lovers and families dining together, enjoying warm of the restaurant interior.
Meanwhile, I was outside, in the cold and wet environment.
When I was walking through the brewery, I got some by these 2 men and 2 women, they were older than me.
They wanted me to take their picture by the Christmas tree still on display.
I told them I had somewhere to be and walked off.
I'm not going to be their fucking photo boy.
Those 4 are likely enjoying thier lives and being happy.
As I wandered aimlessly around town, I kept seeing friends and couples, it made me feel angry.
There are plenty of young, beautiful, fit, healthy, pretty girls in my town too... and absolutely NONE of them would want me as a boyfriend, they will not want me anywhere them.
They view me as an ugly, weird, hulking ugly orge, they prefer 5'9 chinktok pretty boys, and there's lots of them around town too.
I anger was building up within me, when i was walking down one part of town, I saw a young woman walking to me and the other people around were these 2 joggers, they were both jogging away.
I was about to punch her, but for some reason, I didn't.
I just kept walking.
On my walk to my flat, I walked by these 3 guys too, likely in their teens.
One of them liked exactly as these faggy ass, pussy ass eboys would.
He had a defined jawline and those ridiculous puffy haircuts.
He looked up at me with an apathetic look as if I was nothing.
I feel like absolute dogshit as I write this, life is not fucking fair.
I wish I had friends, girlfriends and just be happy and carefree for once, and not be so miserable, alone and depressed.
I swear, next time I get paid, I'm going to pay for an escort.
I don't care if escortmaxxing is "cucked".
Foids in my town fucking hate me, fear, are disgusted by me and want nothing to do with me.
It's either: escort, or nothing at all.
I want to get laid to an escort before I turn 27, while I'm still 26.
It was absolutely fucking miserable.
OK, first, there were groups of close knit friend out and about, walking side by side, laughing, smiling and enjoying life.
They're genders varied, sometimes it was only guys, sometimes only girls, sometimes a combo of both.
Meanwhile I'm alone, sad, depressed and lonely.
I walked pass this one restaurant with tables by large glass windows, allowing you to see directly inside.
I saw friends, lovers and families dining together, enjoying warm of the restaurant interior.
Meanwhile, I was outside, in the cold and wet environment.
When I was walking through the brewery, I got some by these 2 men and 2 women, they were older than me.
They wanted me to take their picture by the Christmas tree still on display.
I told them I had somewhere to be and walked off.
I'm not going to be their fucking photo boy.
Those 4 are likely enjoying thier lives and being happy.
As I wandered aimlessly around town, I kept seeing friends and couples, it made me feel angry.
There are plenty of young, beautiful, fit, healthy, pretty girls in my town too... and absolutely NONE of them would want me as a boyfriend, they will not want me anywhere them.
They view me as an ugly, weird, hulking ugly orge, they prefer 5'9 chinktok pretty boys, and there's lots of them around town too.
I anger was building up within me, when i was walking down one part of town, I saw a young woman walking to me and the other people around were these 2 joggers, they were both jogging away.
I was about to punch her, but for some reason, I didn't.
I just kept walking.
On my walk to my flat, I walked by these 3 guys too, likely in their teens.
One of them liked exactly as these faggy ass, pussy ass eboys would.
He had a defined jawline and those ridiculous puffy haircuts.
He looked up at me with an apathetic look as if I was nothing.
I feel like absolute dogshit as I write this, life is not fucking fair.
I wish I had friends, girlfriends and just be happy and carefree for once, and not be so miserable, alone and depressed.
I swear, next time I get paid, I'm going to pay for an escort.
I don't care if escortmaxxing is "cucked".
Foids in my town fucking hate me, fear, are disgusted by me and want nothing to do with me.
It's either: escort, or nothing at all.
I want to get laid to an escort before I turn 27, while I'm still 26.
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