I was neeting from April until August. On August 14th I got accepted to start a job with a major financial institution. Although it’s a subhuman call-centre role I thought at least I could statusmaxx a little due to the firm’s household name. They also give you a company laptop. It was a 6-month contract with the chance to go permanent, involving temporary on-site training and subsequent permanent remote work.
I am a mentalcel; social anxiety, very socially awkward, feel like an awkward alien around normies. I didn’t disclose my social anxiety during onboarding as I was desperate for this job and didn’t want any obstacles. At the time I only had less than 2-months of savings left. Almost everyday during neeting I’d have mild panic attacks because I was running out of savings.
Day 1: two white toilets greeted me. They were both going to manage the trainee group. They both looked in their 30’s. One of them looked like a Wish version of Alicia Keys. The other looked like a generic foid and had the personality of the female Terminator from Terminator 3.
One of the foid trainers said they’re concerned about me and asked if everything’s okay. I said I was fine and just blamed it on sleep deprivation and feeling unwell and said the training was a little boring. I didn’t mention social anxiety.
Day 2: someone from the recruitment agency phones me and explains that the Client/trainers are concerned because I don’t seem enthusiastic, talkative, upbeat, or ask any questions. They also mentioned the trainers not being happy about me calling the training ‘boring’. But it is boring; sitting at a desk for 8-hours reading health & safety slides. I tried talking to the normies but they just talk about low-IQ topics like talking shit about the agency and about their personal lives. It didn’t state in the job advert that you have to be a gossiping chit-chatter to fit in.
The guy on the phone then went into this fake grandiose speech saying: “I’m rooting for you buddy! I want the best for you! I really care about you and want you to succeed threefold!”. What a fake piece of shit. Why would you care so much about a stranger you’ve never met? He didn’t directly imply that if I don’t act extroverted I will get fired.
Day 4: I get a call again from the guy above at 8:40 a.m. advising not to bother coming in. He said the Client/trainers haven’t seen any improvements and lack faith in my abilities, i.e., I’m still not chit-chatting with other normies, not appearing cheery and upbeat and asking lots of questions, and they’re still bitch-hurt that I called the training ‘boring’. Therefore they will ‘terminate me with immediate effect’. He also seemed very matter-of-fact and bothered that he had to relay this to me; a far cry from that grandiose speech he gave on the last call.
Needless to say I was absolutely devastated. I went into my bathroom and almost hyperventilated. I looked out my window and saw lots of people going about their day and I just wished I could switch places with them to escape this misfortune. I forced myself to fall back asleep at 9 a.m. just so I could escape into the dream realm. I didn’t eat for the entire day.
I would’ve thought gross misconduct or breaking the law would get you fired, not for being a quiet person that minds their own business. They didn’t care about the detriment this caused me. What if I had 3 kids and a wife depending on me? Nope they wouldn’t have cared.
It’s very childish that they took my comment about the training being ‘boring’ personal even though it was a legitimate observation. Like it’s not my fault they don’t make the training more interactive and engaging. I didn’t ask many questions during training because I have prior experience in this role, having worked in a similar position for almost a year before. I wrote a lengthy appeal that mentioned my social anxiety and emailed it to any relevant person but only received silence.
What do you think? Would I have had better luck and received more empathy if the trainers had been male?
I am a mentalcel; social anxiety, very socially awkward, feel like an awkward alien around normies. I didn’t disclose my social anxiety during onboarding as I was desperate for this job and didn’t want any obstacles. At the time I only had less than 2-months of savings left. Almost everyday during neeting I’d have mild panic attacks because I was running out of savings.
Day 1: two white toilets greeted me. They were both going to manage the trainee group. They both looked in their 30’s. One of them looked like a Wish version of Alicia Keys. The other looked like a generic foid and had the personality of the female Terminator from Terminator 3.
One of the foid trainers said they’re concerned about me and asked if everything’s okay. I said I was fine and just blamed it on sleep deprivation and feeling unwell and said the training was a little boring. I didn’t mention social anxiety.
Day 2: someone from the recruitment agency phones me and explains that the Client/trainers are concerned because I don’t seem enthusiastic, talkative, upbeat, or ask any questions. They also mentioned the trainers not being happy about me calling the training ‘boring’. But it is boring; sitting at a desk for 8-hours reading health & safety slides. I tried talking to the normies but they just talk about low-IQ topics like talking shit about the agency and about their personal lives. It didn’t state in the job advert that you have to be a gossiping chit-chatter to fit in.
The guy on the phone then went into this fake grandiose speech saying: “I’m rooting for you buddy! I want the best for you! I really care about you and want you to succeed threefold!”. What a fake piece of shit. Why would you care so much about a stranger you’ve never met? He didn’t directly imply that if I don’t act extroverted I will get fired.
Day 4: I get a call again from the guy above at 8:40 a.m. advising not to bother coming in. He said the Client/trainers haven’t seen any improvements and lack faith in my abilities, i.e., I’m still not chit-chatting with other normies, not appearing cheery and upbeat and asking lots of questions, and they’re still bitch-hurt that I called the training ‘boring’. Therefore they will ‘terminate me with immediate effect’. He also seemed very matter-of-fact and bothered that he had to relay this to me; a far cry from that grandiose speech he gave on the last call.
Needless to say I was absolutely devastated. I went into my bathroom and almost hyperventilated. I looked out my window and saw lots of people going about their day and I just wished I could switch places with them to escape this misfortune. I forced myself to fall back asleep at 9 a.m. just so I could escape into the dream realm. I didn’t eat for the entire day.
I would’ve thought gross misconduct or breaking the law would get you fired, not for being a quiet person that minds their own business. They didn’t care about the detriment this caused me. What if I had 3 kids and a wife depending on me? Nope they wouldn’t have cared.
It’s very childish that they took my comment about the training being ‘boring’ personal even though it was a legitimate observation. Like it’s not my fault they don’t make the training more interactive and engaging. I didn’t ask many questions during training because I have prior experience in this role, having worked in a similar position for almost a year before. I wrote a lengthy appeal that mentioned my social anxiety and emailed it to any relevant person but only received silence.
What do you think? Would I have had better luck and received more empathy if the trainers had been male?
