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I HAVE DIVINE MISSION TO PATTAYAMAXX BEFORE IM 30
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I really reduced myself to a vegetable. I don't have ANY social circle, I mean it. I wake up, I go to work out of necessity and fear of homelessness, I come back buy some junk food on my way home to make myself feel better then go home and browse internet mindlessly over and over and over again going through the same sites, watching random youtube videos and what not... I don't even have motivation to play any video games anymore. Then I go to sleep and that is my life. I try to motivate myself, I try to actually do something, anything... Develop a skill, learn a language or what not and it's just like building castles on ice they melt the very next day.
How do you work on yourself, how can you manage to climb out of this dark pit of despair when there isn't a single soul around who would give you a hand. No, as soon as you try to reach out life smiles at you as it sucker kicks you in the face throwing you down where you belong. Just why? Why does it have to be this way. It truly is quite a pain to carry on living like that. Maybe it would be much easier if I could bring myself to believe in some deity. Something that could give me a purpose, reassure me that all this pain is worth something. But I can't, I can't bring myself to believe in anything like that even if I want to.
I am stuck on the bottom of a dark ocean watching the sun rays pierce the surface from down below.
How do you work on yourself, how can you manage to climb out of this dark pit of despair when there isn't a single soul around who would give you a hand. No, as soon as you try to reach out life smiles at you as it sucker kicks you in the face throwing you down where you belong. Just why? Why does it have to be this way. It truly is quite a pain to carry on living like that. Maybe it would be much easier if I could bring myself to believe in some deity. Something that could give me a purpose, reassure me that all this pain is worth something. But I can't, I can't bring myself to believe in anything like that even if I want to.
I am stuck on the bottom of a dark ocean watching the sun rays pierce the surface from down below.