I sucker punched my older brother from behind the head so hard that he started bleeding from the mouth and spitting blood spots on the floor until the outside of the house when he was leaving, for destroying my only form of transport (escooter). I found a sharp metal pin on the rear wheel, I should have left the escooter inside my room but too humid. I can't even remove the old tire and replace it with a new one as the escooter is designed complex to disassemble. I felt bad and now I'm being scolded/gaslighted by my parents and older sister sending violent threats when she sees me with her boyfriend who despises me and intimidated my and dad last few months ago over marijuana. Also, my older brother who keeps bullying me won't let me sleep at night by using the sound of his mobile phone to torment me I have to stand up for myself regardless because I'm all alone, his been bullying me for years, and keeps getting away with it. Every time he torments me I tell my parents but they keep siding with him cos his older than me by 5 years and more successful in life. I went off the rails last night and could have honestly killed him if I wanted to... his leaving tomorrow for 3 weeks for work and I believe he preplanned this event cos there were incidents in the past when he came back from work when my things go missing and sometimes I'll find them broken. Astrology turned me into a coward as I believe in my personality traits based on the positions of the planets in my zodiac birth chart. So basically I made myself more of an easy target by exploiting my vulnerabilities which he was waiting for me to slip up. I don't know what's going to happen to me tomorrow but I'll defend myself no matter what! he even tried passive-bullying again today with a mobile phone sound but I just ignored it, his an idiot!
