Where do i even start tbh, the last time i went to a bar and had a drink/smoked was 1.1.2023 when i was with my 2 friends.
This year, the only 3 friends that i had left, abandoned me too. 2 of them went to the classical normie lifestyle, school, party on weekends, i rarely hear from my 3rd friend, he has serious mental health issues too.
I spent my whole year rotting away in my room, not doing shit. I have literally 800+ hours in just one of the many games i was playing 24/7.
My grades are the worst they have ever been. I'm barely passing math, physics and Croatian. My average grade is a 3, or C for americans.
My mother became really concerned for me, as this year im even more depressed and antisocial, due to my 2nd friend group leaving me in 2022, and literally standing me up at a festival, ignoring my messages out of nowhere etc. Long story short, they got rid of me. I also saw them playing voleyball with their girlfriends this summer, they didnt even notice me.
I experience suifuel everywhere i go. I cant even NEET in peace w/o something or someone reminding me of how much of a loser i am. I havent seen my distant cousins/ my godfather in a long time. I barely speak to my grandmothers. My grandpa died this spring. My 30yo cousin was constantly bragging about getting matches on tinder and showing me the foids he was slaying.
I barely went fishing this year too. My father is constantly sick. My family is getting poorer and poorer because of inflation. We couldnt even afford a 1 week vacation ( both my parents have middle class wages).
I deleted all social media to avoid seeing suicidefuel. No one even noticed it.
The only good things that genuely brought me hapiness is when my cat had babies and when i got my guitar. Everything else was pure misery.
As im writing this, its the 18th of december, all of my classmates already have a new years party planned ahead, while i will waste this new years at home, probably reading posts on here.
Im running out of motivation to keep on going. I dont even think a ONS with a foid would make me happy. Im sad i wasnt born to be somone people my age accepted. My family loves me at least.
This year, the only 3 friends that i had left, abandoned me too. 2 of them went to the classical normie lifestyle, school, party on weekends, i rarely hear from my 3rd friend, he has serious mental health issues too.
I spent my whole year rotting away in my room, not doing shit. I have literally 800+ hours in just one of the many games i was playing 24/7.
My grades are the worst they have ever been. I'm barely passing math, physics and Croatian. My average grade is a 3, or C for americans.
My mother became really concerned for me, as this year im even more depressed and antisocial, due to my 2nd friend group leaving me in 2022, and literally standing me up at a festival, ignoring my messages out of nowhere etc. Long story short, they got rid of me. I also saw them playing voleyball with their girlfriends this summer, they didnt even notice me.
I experience suifuel everywhere i go. I cant even NEET in peace w/o something or someone reminding me of how much of a loser i am. I havent seen my distant cousins/ my godfather in a long time. I barely speak to my grandmothers. My grandpa died this spring. My 30yo cousin was constantly bragging about getting matches on tinder and showing me the foids he was slaying.
I barely went fishing this year too. My father is constantly sick. My family is getting poorer and poorer because of inflation. We couldnt even afford a 1 week vacation ( both my parents have middle class wages).
I deleted all social media to avoid seeing suicidefuel. No one even noticed it.
The only good things that genuely brought me hapiness is when my cat had babies and when i got my guitar. Everything else was pure misery.
As im writing this, its the 18th of december, all of my classmates already have a new years party planned ahead, while i will waste this new years at home, probably reading posts on here.
Im running out of motivation to keep on going. I dont even think a ONS with a foid would make me happy. Im sad i wasnt born to be somone people my age accepted. My family loves me at least.
