Venting rant about money, family, lack of purpose

[My Name Jeff]

this is a very whiney self centered rant but i have nobody i can talk to so i wanted to post it here

recently ive been looking at jobs in my area, they all require college degrees if they pay decently and arent back-breaking physical labor which im not capable of. i called my dad to talk and all he did was brag to me about him taking to buddy to see a show at a casino and buy him dinner.. i just hung up. i cant.. for some reason thats broken my will. i try and vent to him about my financial issues recently and he always brags to me about how he is at the casino, how he is buying this, that, new car, hot tub, at the casino 5 nights a week. now to hear he is treating his buddy to expensive dinners and shows but me, his own son, who he should love, he treats me like a stranger. i just want money to buy a better laptop to cope with my fucking boring SHIT life, and he cant even help me with that. im not asking him for a car, a house, just a simple fucking laptop because the one i have right now can barely run any games.

ive tried to be cheery lately, tried to be nicer, ive tried to socialize more with my family. but now i am just sitting here feeling worse than ever.

my whole life i have been setup by my dad, he raised me isolated on a farm because HE liked it, he never took me to see friends because it inconvenienced HIM, he fed me tons of garbage food to shut me up and made me obese as a child because it was easier for HIM, he spent my college fund at the casino because HE found it fun. him him him, always him. i had no friends because i was obese and socially underdeveloped, i didnt get any girlfriend because i was obese, i couldnt afford to go college because he spent my college fund for low level entertainment, and now its all coming back. i have nothing.

i have no one i can lean on, nobody i can ask for help or support or even a hug, i have so little money, i need so much money to make my life normal, i need money for copes, its money. i hate that its just money, but thats how it is. i drive 2 hours a day to be at a job that pays okay-ish, and its crushing me. i give my mother money because she is tight and is hard on rent, but i have nobody i can really lean on. i just wish i had someone, anyone, to even lay with at night and just appreciate me. i dont want to live, but i dont want to die. i want to enjoy life, but right now i feel worse than ever.

i think to my sister even, she was getting 4000 a month and was still asking my mom for money, and other things, and she always gave it to her. not faulting my sister but just reflecting it on my current situation i feel so alone, so left behind. nobody cares.

i drove home today just thinking about how i want my life to be, how could i achieve it, but it was just impossible. the thought of suicide makes me feel so happy, imagine just feeling for a second that nothing matters anymore, no more issues, no more stress, no more anything, just serenity. but i dont want to kill myself, i want to live a nice life. im just so defeated right now i never thought i could feel like this.

 

[lifefuel]

Call me a glowie but at this rate with the sui posts we might need to start setting up IRL meetups, mang

 

[Zat]

ive tried to be cheery lately, tried to be nicer,

yeah you deserve all of that, cuck

 

[My Name Jeff]

on top of this i have had an allergic reaction recently and my skin burns, my neck back and arms ache, my body is so sore and my mind is so broken. it just feels like not being me right now would be an immaculate gift.

 

[My Name Jeff]

boomers are so selfish and greedy it makes me sick. My piece of shit boomer parents also live well and give me nothing

my dad spends thousands at a casino, his wife gets 7k a month too, its unreal how much money they are getting and my dad refuses to help me at all and says "well you have to work for what you want, my parents didnt help me"

his parents suffered to give him a better life, and in return he leaves his child to rot. maybe i didnt turn out how he wanted, maybe my life is pathetic, but i am his kid. does he not feel any bit of sadness for me?

and he has the nerve to flaunt it at me too, bragging how he is always going to see shows. and i try and act like i am happy for him, but i have nothing.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

They're sick fucks.

Very.

 

[Izayacel]

trash parents mate , maybe if you reunite / reunion with your patents , punsh the shit out of your Dad .

Imagine getting 7k a Month and not helping your son with even 700 € / usd or so

You have to remember that you gotta be a Dipshit to Earn Respect and Fear from Others . Its a Backwards World after all " .

 

[Whitefeminineboy]

this is a very whiney self centered rant but i have nobody i can talk to so i wanted to post it here

recently ive been looking at jobs in my area, they all require college degrees if they pay decently and arent back-breaking physical labor which im not capable of. i called my dad to talk and all he did was brag to me about him taking to buddy to see a show at a casino and buy him dinner.. i just hung up. i cant.. for some reason thats broken my will. i try and vent to him about my financial issues recently and he always brags to me about how he is at the casino, how he is buying this, that, new car, hot tub, at the casino 5 nights a week. now to hear he is treating his buddy to expensive dinners and shows but me, his own son, who he should love, he treats me like a stranger. i just want money to buy a better laptop to cope with my fucking boring SHIT life, and he cant even help me with that. im not asking him for a car, a house, just a simple fucking laptop because the one i have right now can barely run any games.

ive tried to be cheery lately, tried to be nicer, ive tried to socialize more with my family. but now i am just sitting here feeling worse than ever.

my whole life i have been setup by my dad, he raised me isolated on a farm because HE liked it, he never took me to see friends because it inconvenienced HIM, he fed me tons of garbage food to shut me up and made me obese as a child because it was easier for HIM, he spent my college fund at the casino because HE found it fun. him him him, always him. i had no friends because i was obese and socially underdeveloped, i didnt get any girlfriend because i was obese, i couldnt afford to go college because he spent my college fund for low level entertainment, and now its all coming back. i have nothing.

i have no one i can lean on, nobody i can ask for help or support or even a hug, i have so little money, i need so much money to make my life normal, i need money for copes, its money. i hate that its just money, but thats how it is. i drive 2 hours a day to be at a job that pays okay-ish, and its crushing me. i give my mother money because she is tight and is hard on rent, but i have nobody i can really lean on. i just wish i had someone, anyone, to even lay with at night and just appreciate me. i dont want to live, but i dont want to die. i want to enjoy life, but right now i feel worse than ever.

i think to my sister even, she was getting 4000 a month and was still asking my mom for money, and other things, and she always gave it to her. not faulting my sister but just reflecting it on my current situation i feel so alone, so left behind. nobody cares.

i drove home today just thinking about how i want my life to be, how could i achieve it, but it was just impossible. the thought of suicide makes me feel so happy, imagine just feeling for a second that nothing matters anymore, no more issues, no more stress, no more anything, just serenity. but i dont want to kill myself, i want to live a nice life. im just so defeated right now i never thought i could feel like this.

your dad is a stupid fucker.
He should buy you what you want this idiot of a dad

 

[Thaway]

ive tried to be cheery lately, tried to be nicer

= You behaved like a submissive little bitch.

The world is a jungle, stop being "nice". Being nice is showing weakness and submissiveness and people are predatory.

 

[My Name Jeff]

= You behaved like a submissive little bitch.

The world is a jungle, stop being "nice". Being nice is showing weakness and submissiveness and people are predatory.

what kind of shit dudebro advice is this

yes let me act mean and "alpha" against my parents to show them how much i men's business... what a stupid fucking thing to think

 

[My Name Jeff]

your dad is a stupid fucker.
He should buy you what you want this idiot of a dad

i don't even want a lot, just a little. it is especially a little when compared to how much he gets.

 

[Thaway]

what kind of shit dudebro advice is this

yes let me act mean and "alpha" against my parents to show them how much i men's business... what a stupid fucking thing to think

lol okay

You didn't actually mention that you tried to act more nice with your parents. The way you worded it sounded like you are some kind of retarded people pleaser. Either way, acting nice and cheery is asking for people to target you. Call it what you want but it's true.

 

[My Name Jeff]

lol okay

You didn't actually mention that you tried to act more nice with your parents. The way you worded it sounded like you are some kind of retarded people pleaser. Either way, acting nice and cheery is asking for people to target you. Call it what you want but it's true.

i dont talk with anyone besides my parents or people at work and i am always in a bad mood at work because i hate being there

 

[I want virgin girl]

lol okay

You didn't actually mention that you tried to act more nice with your parents. The way you worded it sounded like you are some kind of retarded people pleaser. Either way, acting nice and cheery is asking for people to target you. Call it what you want but it's true.

The problem with this is that your advice is only suitable for Chads, not incels. Do you even know what happens when he starts to act tough and alpha with his own parents? They'll just laugh in his face, or worse. You won't gain any respect points if you look like an incel; people will treat you like crap. If you don't have any bargaining chips, then it's over. It's the same kind of advice a red-piller or PUA gives to incels about how they need to trash-talk girls, have game, neg them, etc. IT DOES NOT work.

 

[Thaway]

The problem with this is that your advice is only suitable for Chads, not incels. Do you even know what happens when he starts to act tough and alpha with his own parents? They'll just laugh in his face, or worse. You won't gain any respect points if you look like an incel; people will treat you like crap. If you don't have any bargaining chips, then it's over. It's the same kind of advice a red-piller or PUA gives to incels about how they need to trash-talk girls, have game, neg them, etc. IT DOES NOT work.

Classic straw man you created there. You are basically responding to yourself, not me. I never said act tough and alpha.

 

[I want virgin girl]

Classic straw man you created there. You are basically responding to yourself, not me. I never said act tough and alpha.

You said this:

You behaved like a submissive little bitch.

The world is a jungle, stop being "nice". Being nice is showing weakness and submissiveness and people are predatory.

lol okay

You didn't actually mention that you tried to act more nice with your parents. The way you worded it sounded like you are some kind of retarded people pleaser. Either way, acting nice and cheery is asking for people to target you. Call it what you want but it's true.

From the context, it sounded like you had in mind that he shouldn't act nice, but rather act tough and start demanding respect by adopting this mindset. I apologize if I misread it, but that was the first thing that came to my mind.

 

[Thaway]

You said this:


From the context, it sounded like you had in mind that he shouldn't act nice, but rather act tough and start demanding respect by adopting this mindset. I apologize if I misread it, but that was the first thing that came to my mind.

I see. I just meant, well don't be nice and cheery. Being nice is not only a waste of time it does signal submissiveness to people.Which leads to people treating you worse and overstepping your boundaries. I think the best way to deal with normies is to be cold and blunt with them and be as egoistical as possible.

 

[Verxis]

boomers are so selfish and greedy it makes me sick. My piece of shit boomer parents also live well and give me nothing

They learned to be jews from their parents.

 

[Aquiline]

i try and act like i am happy for him

Rookie mistake.